that which is precious.

sometimes in life... actually many times in life, i wonder if it is only me or others also feel the same about "that which is precious".

i mean like, life always just throws you into a completely crapped up situation and when you manage to find something nice, you just cling to it because you fear to give it up. you fear that once you loosen your grip even a little bit, "that which is precious" will just slip out of your hands and never return again. after all, "that which is precious" is a comfort zone. one which offers sanctuary and solace for the faltering heart after all the battering that the world has done to that spirit.

definitely, everyone needs their own precious, but who's to say that that precious will not one day turn its back on you and just leave you in the cold, bitter world all on your own? who's to say that that precious will always be there for you, cover your back and not leave you just when you needed it the most?

that's the whole dilemma of getting something which is precious. you put all your faith and trust in it that it becomes an indispensable part of you and if it ever leaves you, the very definition of what your life is has to be reconsidered and your world comes crashing down. i have to say... the crappiest part of this whole thing is that no matter how much you care and cherish that which is precious, you never know if you are treasured in return or just chucked into the corner of ordinary things.

somehow, further along the line, another precious comes into your life and you doubt if you can ever clench so hard onto something anymore after all the harshness that life has shown you. you begin to doubt that life can ever be so perfect like you pictured it previously. you sway back and forth thinking and pondering if that new thing that just came into your life if just some ordinary thing or something precious; something worthy of your love and time. i mean... that's just human nature to minimize the damage done and to avoid being hurt all over again.

sometimes i just hope and hope that i can understand what the other party is thinking of... but i guess that i'll just have to resign to fate and have faith that everything will turn out well... after all, we only have one life. love like you've never been hurt, they say. sounds terrible, i know. but life's a gamble and you might just lose the most precious thing in your life if you don't for these opportunities are not always there for you...

in the end, will there be a happy ending for all that which is precious? i guess only time will tell...