My Story...

that which is precious.

2011-05-20T01:51:00.010+08:00

sometimes in life... actually many times in life, i wonder if it is only me or others also feel the same about "that which is precious".

i mean like, life always just throws you into a completely crapped up situation and when you manage to find something nice, you just cling to it because you fear to give it up. you fear that once you loosen your grip even a little bit, "that which is precious" will just slip out of your hands and never return again. after all, "that which is precious" is a comfort zone. one which offers sanctuary and solace for the faltering heart after all the battering that the world has done to that spirit.

definitely, everyone needs their own precious, but who's to say that that precious will not one day turn its back on you and just leave you in the cold, bitter world all on your own? who's to say that that precious will always be there for you, cover your back and not leave you just when you needed it the most?

that's the whole dilemma of getting something which is precious. you put all your faith and trust in it that it becomes an indispensable part of you and if it ever leaves you, the very definition of what your life is has to be reconsidered and your world comes crashing down. i have to say... the crappiest part of this whole thing is that no matter how much you care and cherish that which is precious, you never know if you are treasured in return or just chucked into the corner of ordinary things.

somehow, further along the line, another precious comes into your life and you doubt if you can ever clench so hard onto something anymore after all the harshness that life has shown you. you begin to doubt that life can ever be so perfect like you pictured it previously. you sway back and forth thinking and pondering if that new thing that just came into your life if just some ordinary thing or something precious; something worthy of your love and time. i mean... that's just human nature to minimize the damage done and to avoid being hurt all over again.

sometimes i just hope and hope that i can understand what the other party is thinking of... but i guess that i'll just have to resign to fate and have faith that everything will turn out well... after all, we only have one life. love like you've never been hurt, they say. sounds terrible, i know. but life's a gamble and you might just lose the most precious thing in your life if you don't for these opportunities are not always there for you...

in the end, will there be a happy ending for all that which is precious? i guess only time will tell...

the things i miss

2010-05-24T23:43:00.006+08:00

one friend asked me to make a post of the things i missed in life. so here it goes.

looking back at life, there have been lots of gains and losses, trials and tribulations but at the end of the day, we just live life like there's no other... keep the good memories and leave the bad.

i miss the times when i was constantly dependent, always leaning, never standing on my own. because only then will you really know what's really yours and just what seems to be yours. i mean... its always nice to know there's always someone who can break your fall when you slip and fall back on when everything turns in on you.

i miss the sincere friendships that people used to have. it amuses me how pretentious people can get... and it amuses me even more how pretentious i have become, considering the fact that i always wore my heart on my sleeve before this. some people say... yeah... that's being a more matured person. but now i weep for the innocence i once had; smiling with teeth and not fangs, laughing with my heart and not an empty sound.

i miss the frequent outings
i miss the lame msn games
i miss the carefree life
i miss the days when i was driven around

i just miss the comfort of knowing that everything will be alright.

life has to go on anyhow. we cant change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand. so make every moment of your life count. =D

for the record, thanks to all those people who made my life worth living so far. thanks for being there, thanks for the beautiful memories.

the phoenix

2010-02-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

is arising from the ashes.

renewed energy, somehow to study and take on the world again. probably its the people around. who knows. lol.

momento mori they say. remember that you are mortal. and yeah. everytime a birthday comes up, i think of how quick life is catching up with me. and how im gonna be in the future, working with no life. sigh. or probably studying even more. whatever it is, other than the pot of shimmering gold i expect to see, i dont see any other fun coming with it. and wats more. wat am i actually going to do with a pot of gold if i ever get one? its not like i don have enough to get by, or that i have a lot of wants.

back to theory of interest!

gong xi fa chai??

2010-02-22T21:47:00.004+08:00

btw. the question mark there's not a typo.

something's missing this year. missing badly. maybe its the cousins i haven't seen in ages. maybe its because of uni life pressure.

"you with the sad eyes, don't be discouraged"

life's all just fine over here. but fine is the problem. i mean like whoever spends cny just fine? fml.

"the darkness still inside you make you feel so small"

seriously slacking in studies, i don't know where the hell to start. and here i am bloging, about how sucky cny has been.

don't get me wrong. friends are all good. been out quite a few times this whole week but the feel's just not there. sigh. what a waste.

"let them show... your true colours, are beautiful like a rainbow"

just found out that there is a crap test on the saturday i am supposed to go to the jenjarom temple. i guess i'll just have to settle for sri jayanthi or brickfields. btw. the crap test is at 430 in the evening. cant find the silver lining of this cloud. mahjong with the housemates perhaps?

cant say everything didnt go as good as i make it sound to be la. lol. i won about 40 bucks on mahjong so far this new year. beginner's luck i guess. lol.

ooh. i 4gt to say: ooh its been a while since i last posted and this is a long awaited one. bla bla bla. totally cliche everyone gets bored just looking at that sentence.

assignments and tests are fleeting here already. i guess i won't be updating anytime soon now.

p/s. jun told me that i shouldnt wish any1 sam seong si seng coz in mandrin it sounds like 'your income will be reduced to 40%' and chai yuen gwun gwun (or sth along those lines) coz it means ur gonna get fired. lol.

anyway, may your new year be better than mine. =)

hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and mine is hanging by a thread. i need a gwai yan now. lol.

of sticks and stones...

2009-09-30T20:25:00.004+08:00

i dont know why i choose this title. lol. just felt like it.

by the way. just so every1 shuld know, yours trully had just finished his exams and is currently enjoying his semester break before the next semester starts on 19th october. so thats 2.5 weeks of holidays before i hit the books again. so ppl... i was thinking of a sec scl gathering sometime soon before stpm starts. watch surrogate maybe? or pandorum?

recapping the whole semester. definitely lots of things happened during these brief 3 months... gained friends, lost friends. probably aqcuaintances i should say? but that would be an understatement. so much so that it would befit the title ... the understatement. lol. forget my crapping. lol.

so... going back, this semester has been okay i guess. studies are okay. like staying out it definitely an experience. an interesting and to a certain extent lucrative one also. erm... but i wouldnt say its been like a wow experience and that its so valuable as exposure for when i get my own house... the oni thing i've probably consciously learnt is how to use the washing machine and that almost everything under the sun can be goggled. ranged from googling how to make chicken murtabak to googling for to take off my contact lens (yes, i was that pathetic). lol. probably also picked up a bit of exercising la i guess. i think during these 3 months of living at the condo, i've exercised more than i've done compared to the other times of the year. and not that i did a lot also. lol.

also learnt that you should never expect much from things that already showed its true colours to you. you'll end up dissappointed. i know i did. period.

p/s. robin hood is a fucking bastard. and im running to catch a show now. so i'll probably update more later la...

skeletons in the closet

2009-08-30T00:08:00.003+08:00

when you do sth wrong or sth u dun feel proud of what to u do??

some ppl face it bravely, i dont. i chuck it under the rug and hope that while i forget it, it also forgets me. chicken rite. yeah. i know. but thats the only way of "solving" things i know well enough to carry out.

i try not to talk abt it, tell as few people as possible, and even if it creeps out the corner of my mind, treat as if its not there. nevertheless, i'll face it headstrong if in any case, i am forced to have to face it.

but somehow, i come to learn a few things.

... all problems can be solved given enough time and money.

... problems may have permanent effects on people, and since its pemanent, we just have to live our lives to the best that we can.

... even if you pretend the problem doesnt exist, learn from it so that it never ever happens again. if the problem can be hidden, be thankful that the whole world doesnt have to know and be thankful that you can learn from your mistake before it gets too late. if the problem cant be hidden, just live with it because nothing can be done. laugh at it(even if you have to force yourself) or watever, just dont dwell on it coz things wont get better that way.

... when you face any problems, even if it seems like a mountain in front of you and you cant solve it, take it a step at a time. just work towards making your life better coz wats the worse that can happen?? your life cant get any shittier than it already is rite? haha... and yeah. obviously solve the most important problems first and if you still fail, you've tried your best... and remember again, given enough money and time, any problem can be solved.

anyway... thats the few important things i learnt from problems. i know some / many people may disagree with what i think or how i handle my problems. but im just saying, this is how i do it...

its been ages eh...

2009-08-19T18:36:00.003+08:00

seriously been ages since my last update and i must say... a terrible whole lot has happened in this period of time... where to start eh...???

generally, uni life has gotten very very very much more busy. i mean like freaking assignments and tests are like lining up the whole week. as it is, i hav one test this friday, 1 test this saturday, 1 assignment to pass up on monday and another on tuesday. talk about hectic eh..

and yeah friday night outings... every friday i go back home, i look forward to midnite outings. its almost been like 2 months that every friday nite the ho brothers, my sis and i will go out for a movie... then for supper. mostly at murni. haha... yeah... the 1 at ss2... earliest time returning home:2.30 in the morning coz my mum gave me the curfew.

btw my laptop got scwered for abt 2 weeks adi. i wondered how i cud survive this period. no more dota with the hsemates, no internet, practically no life. thanks to sunny who lends me his computer and kar wai downloading songs for me to spam. (ooh yeah... the ONLY song i've been listening to for abt a week nw... taylor swift... you belong with me)

i have something i want to say.

"...now, in helpless moments, i think of you, a figure forgotten in hours not of need, but a comforter of the past..."

fyi, no1 likes to be a mere figure to any1 or anything... despite everything thats happened... i'd let what happened happen, and not be sentimental. i could care less abt what i had invested so far. and so yeah. i've preactically given up hope on what i've to say, and its too late to change anything, coz im indifferent nw. i'm not gonna be any1's back up plan anymore... go figure.

till my next post... bah bai...=)

p/s. thanks for reading, whoever read the whole post. sorry for the dryness tho.

half blood prince

2009-07-20T16:37:00.001+08:00

harry potter movie sucked. period. dont even bother buying the pirated dvd for it...

p/s. gtg bac to study

and so it is... the turn of the tide...

2009-07-05T09:22:00.005+08:00

wow... really long time since i last updated eh. i sud be studying now la blardee... sigh. got calculus test on tuesday morning and accounting test on thursday evening.

anyway. just wanted to update so that my blog wont look so dead...

***

in case any1 doesnt know, i adi strted my degree programme in setapak and am currently staying there. coming back to my place on fridays until sunday nites. all housemated are really nice. room mate's a good companion. nothing more i cud ask for. thats the nice part. food is terrible. period. let no more be said.

just when i thought that everything in my life was like falling into place, some things just have to go falling apart. guess its wrong judgement eyh. things come and go. i just expected things to last longer. but i guess earlier is better than later rite. later it gets, the worse it gets. earlier gives more room to restabalize.

degree life has been erm... erm... ok i guess i should say... but that would probably be an understatement la. i somehow just dont like classes n lectures here. probably its coz i havent really made any new friends here la. probably its oso coz the lecturers are a bit too serious with everything n all. they just come in the lecture theater and just blabber away, not caring about the students at all. not to say all lecturers la. most of them. but i guess that uni life eyh...

ooh yeah. i 4got to mention. my spare tyre for my kembara got stolen. yeah. i parked at a legal parking lot near uni. less than an hour i left the car. tyre got stolen. to the person/people who stole it: bloody fuck you. may that tyre explode when you are driving and hit a tree and cause your limbs to be permanently paralysed. no, dont die. i want you to live to the end of your life being a vegetable for what you have done. and again, bloody fuck you.

i dont know wat to type anymore. so for now, bai bai la.

all the time in the world...

2009-05-29T06:10:00.006+08:00

yeah... for the time being, i have all the time in the world. until my degree starts that is, which is in 3 days time...

really having mixed feelings about it... i mean like going to setapak n all... yeah.. i get to meet david, janson, ccm n all... but yet it seems so fast time flies me by and i cant believe im already going to start my degree.

and bout shifting out... seems like a nice idea, but the conditions are a bit too not predictable 4 me coz i havent had any experience of anything like this b4... worried bout what i've heard of so far... (everything and i mean everything i've heard bout setapak is that the crime rate there is very high) but i guess its gonna be ok la... coz after all, if u have money and time, you can solve any problem in the world...=)

seems like it was just yesterday i was choosing which tertiary institution i should enrol myself into. and never in a million years would i see myself coming to utar... a place which i dont have any comments about. compared to taylors or help n all... and now its time for the next level... one of which im nt sure if i can do well...

yeah, i've always wanted to do actuarial. but to come to think of it... i dun really know much about it other than its basic nature and hearing that its a tough course.

anyhow... i just wanted to say... everythings going really fast and things just happen to change when im finally settling down and beginning to relax. how sucky. i kno. sigh.

p/s. friends come and go, but enemies tend to accumulate.

and yes, ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE IN THEIR DEGREE... especially the kampar ones... which i dunno when i'll see again.

no boundaries

2009-05-24T20:01:00.004+08:00

i am currently very into this song.... enjoy...=)

No Boundaries by KRIS ALLEN

Ohh
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries

sem 3 official closing

2009-05-19T12:41:00.002+08:00

presenting to everyone... my first 4 flat!!! yay... guess it'll be my last. heard degree is gonna be hell a lot tougher... thats why continuing scholarship cgpa is 3.0 oni. btw... i can continue my 100% scholarship!!! yay me!!!

thats all la that i hav to announce... back to the boring life... of terrible internet connection and no online games... haha...

updates

2009-05-17T09:03:00.003+08:00

2 weeks into the holidays adi... 2 more weeks until degree starts... guess sem results will be out late nex week or sth like that... really having mixed feelings about it. hoping it'll be good but having not-so-good expectations. sigh.

past few days i havent been on9 much... was out shoping with my aunt that came down frm melacca and then my mom. went pavillion n klcc a few days in a row. (sale time mah...)

in klcc... i obviously went to kinokuniya lor... cudn't resist not going to the manga section. haha. srt8 went to fullmetal alchemist. was so so so so so tempted to buy 1. in the end i just sat there finishing 2 volumes of it. finished the 2 in 2 hours. figured out it'll just be on display after i read it or be borrowed to some friends to read... so din buy lor... anyway... i saw the dvds!!! they had fullmetal alchemist brotherhood dvd until episode 51 which is the current fma released oni until episode 6... ooh yeah... today is sunday!!! cant wait to watch episode 7... haha... back, i wanted to buy the dvd but it was like 110 bucks for 3 episodes. being boh lui lang, can see cannot own lor. sigh.

back in my hse, its back to the usual boring life. whats worse, internet connection sucks. wanted to dota with ch yesterday then dc. paiseh betul. even now the connection sucks. think i sud giv streamyx a call or sth. sigh. mah fan like hell.

dont know wat to do adi. thinking of moving to setapak oso i havent packed a single thing. think i'm taking everything too lightly, hoping there'll just be a matress n everything there set for me once i reach there. haha. yes, everything has been usually done for me, thats wats making me feel this way. feel so spoilt.

anyhow, theres this feeling in my heart that like makes it like difficult to breathe again. i think i know the problem, but maybe its just me thinking too much. neh la, i'll just let things unfold in due time... all in due time.

thats all for today.

yay!!! bn kena tembak kao kao...

2009-05-12T09:23:00.004+08:00

perak declated opposition state again... yay!... the below text (in blue is from nst online) explains the court decision. lazy to read can skip, but recommended coz interesting to read la... coz the judge shoot bn... shoot inspector general... and "commented" on the sultan's actions. haha... little commentary at the bottom (in green)...

KUALA LUMPUR: The High Court has reinstated Datuk Seri Mohammad Nizar Jamaluddin as Perak menteri besar.

Following the ruling, Pa-katan Rakyat state executive councillors will get back the jobs they lost on Feb 6 when Datuk Dr Zambry Abdul Kadir was appointed menteri besar.

Judge Datuk Abdul Aziz Abdul Rahim said when a menteri besar left office, his exco followed suit.

The gist of Aziz's judgment was that only through a vote of no-confidence could a chief executive be removed.

He said that since Nizar had not resigned, his position had not been vacated.

Aziz said he needed to only look at Article 43(4) of the Federal Constitution to interpret Article 16 (6) of the Perak Constitution as both provisions were identical. "Since the articles are unambiguous, the words need only be given a plain meaning," he said.

Aziz said Nizar went to Istana Kinta on Feb 4 to meet the sultan and ask him to dissolve the house under Article 36(2) of the state's Constitution to facilitate fresh elections.

Also present during the audience was state legal adviser Datuk Ahmad Kamal Md Shahid. Ahmad Kamal had later, in an affidavit filed in support of Zambry, disputed this fact, saying that Nizar had sought the dissolution of the assembly under Article 16 (6).

Aziz said it would be reasonable to think that Nizar had been appealing to the sultan to dissolve the house under Article 36(2) as there was no clear majority in the house.

Aziz's decision was in line with the ruling in the celebrated case of Stephen Kalong Ningkan v Tun Abang Haji Openg where the High Court in 1966 said the test whether a chief minister had ceased to command the confidence of the majority was in the house and not outside.

haha...this is so so so interesting... sultan azlan... a lawyer and was lord president and supposedly a constituitonal expert before he became sultan. probably his constitutional expert power diminished as he took the position of sultan la... thats why he made such a mistake... anyway... below is from ft.com. must read... haha... coz i think its not malaysian based so can "comment" on the sultan's actions.

from ft.com: The court’s ruling is embarrassing to Sultan Azlan Shah, Perak’s royal ruler, who decided to appoint a National Front member as chief minister, replacing Mr Nazir, after the defections. The high court said the sultan should not have made the appointment in the absence of a vote of no confidence by the state assembly against Mr Nazir.

thats all for today la...

sien like hell ar~~~

2009-05-11T08:04:00.005+08:00

yes... it has been very very boring lately over here...

*downloading fma episode 6* ... almost done, yay... but after that 20 mins then life is back to sien again... sigh...

thinking of some problems really making me feel like vomiting now... locking myself in my room now... hardly even speaking more than 100 words a day. its torture.

i hope uni starts faster!!! but isnt it so ironic... haha... uni time cant wait for holiday to start... holiday time cant wait for uni to start... sigh...

watch other anime until like... very very jelak adi...

*download done adi*
*finished watching adi*

sien adi...:(

anyway... now, thinking of the future... moving out of my place and all... sounds nice... but i dont really know is its what i really want~~ probably it is la~~ but the thought of the amount of money its costing... aiks... need som1 to split the cost... haha... but its all up to some1 else to decide now...

being away from people and only having to be able to chat on msn is so... unlike really looking at people and chatting... i cant call many of my old frens... ALL of them are having their exams now or at least preparing for it~~ anyhow, a close friend of mine had a sleepover at my place on saturday... luckily he did... if not i'll be committing suicide wih the boredom surrounding me now...

p/s. playing dota and fifa alone is not as fun as having som1 to BE PRESENT and chat while playing... (im just a starter... not planning to show how bad i am on9 yt... haha)

*** btw, i am seriously available for going for a holiday now. any1 feeling sien... call me for a sleepover oso la~out of kl oso can... haha~ i dun need to go out or be entertained. staying in the hse is completely ok for me. i just need to see people i am comfortable with*** yes, i am really DESPERATE. haha...

a happy post...=)

2009-05-07T22:24:00.003+08:00

yeah... this is a happy post... HAPPY B'DAY CHIAT HOU...=P

really had a nice year knowing you...

see... he is so happy!!! haha...=)

:'(

2009-05-06T23:47:00.003+08:00

lost in the wind so a big part has gone
then it'll just be like
a song without rhyme
a body with no consciousness
for a house is not a home
because for so long its walls have shut out the world to it
and locked all its secrets within it
never for the eyes of others
only waiting to be discovered by the one with the patience
and the one with the heart

but still
too early it is to tell
if the threads turn out to be
entangled or straightened

all in due time
sigh
all in due time
shall everything be unfolded
but would it be TOO LATE for anything to be done??

exams are over!!! (for now that is)

2009-05-02T18:40:00.002+08:00

exams are over... but im still not throwing my notes n books away... coz scared any funny thing comes out and i hav to repeat... yeah... im that paranoid... haha... anyway... im starting my 10 precepts tmrw for a week until wesak... and in case any1 doesnt know wats 10 precepts, its:

The Ten Precepts:

I undertake to observe the precept to abstain from ...

...harming living beings.
...taking things not freely given.
...sexual misconduct.
...false speech.
...intoxicating drinks and drugs causing heedlessness.
...taking untimely meals.
...dancing, singing, music and watching grotesque mime.
...use of garlands, perfumes and personal adornment.
...use of high seats.
...accepting gold or silver.

so... i guess i wont be really onlining much or updating until the 10th... so till then... stay tuned...=)

little bit more!!!

2009-04-30T12:56:00.002+08:00

only management studies left!!! the last battle of middle earth... haha... was thinking of lotr... haha... last battle of my foundation la~~~...

... a little bit more... then i'll be that much closer to the end of exams... but is that what i really want??... to be stuck with only myself for one month until i start my degree and meet new ppl~~~...

but to come to think of it... still got lots of things to look forward to la...

wesak
room cleaning
anime-ing
manga-ing
completing my reading list
probably learning some mandrin~~~
watching tv!!! (havent done that in the longest time)
more SLEEPING...=)
go kai kai with frens
n summore things that i 4gt...

uni foundation pictures

2009-04-19T11:38:00.007+08:00

the critique...

2009-04-15T18:44:00.003+08:00

i am supposed to be studying now, but this is rather important that i have to update. today had utar DRAMA finals. all went quite well with benson and daniel presenting at the end. did 3 songs. all wow-ed the crowd while the judges were finalising the results.

IN MY OPINION, as a critic, the results were a total screw up. maybe not total la... but definitely majorly a screw up. 5 groups presented.

1) MANY IN MIND, EMPTY IN HEAD... good overall. english was okay. gangster had good speaking english but with layman accent only. distribution of acting, good, and acting also good. was funny. story was about gangsters kidnapping a rich kid but end up surrendering to the police in the end.(second on my list)

2) A HEART something... so FULL of screaming, and crying until june had a migraine and i had a bit of head ache. could not find a moral of the story (all dramas were supposed to have moral values). i think it could have a moral value if not for the last line in the drama: god, thank you for taking revenge for me (or sth like that). drama was about 2 best frens, one killing the other because he liked the other's wife which commited adultery. (consolation prize on my list).

3) HARRY-RELLA... a definite adaptation of cinderella. din do much changes in the plot (so surely not an original production la) as expected... cliche la.. all were the same except that there were substitutes... all girls were boys (explaining harry). twin sisters were twin brothers, step mom is step dad, fairy god mom is fairy god bro. the ball was replaced by "far far away idol"... every1 knew the ending even before it started. distribution of acting was bad. "harry" did every scene (duh). side actors had few lines oni. could not find any moral of the story also. (3rd on my list)

4) FATIMA... performance about a maid being abused by employer. lots of mumbling. captured audience mostly by actions (the abusing part). props were good. detailed, neat, not to mention good costumes and make up. justice prevails in the end (as expected)... (consolation on my list)

5) ROBBIN OOPS (CORNIA)... overall good in my opinion. had good english as a whole, original plot, funny and entertaining. only things is maybe it had a bit of dancing that probably was considered as underage scenes by some of the judges (but i don't see it as a reason that would affect their getting first place coz even the "the heart sth" had a bedroom scene with 2 ppl having sex on a bed)...the drama is about a girl that goes around stealing money from men by sorta seducing them and stealing their money when they're not paying attention. in the end, she was punished by the queen of cornia (queen corny)... (first on my list)

turned out, first went to harry- rella, second to cornia, third to the heart something, and the two consolations went to many in mind, empty in head and fatima. that was what was a screw up... best props, best actor n actress were ok... best props won coz they were simple and neat. best actress won coz she was the oni actress that had a role enough to really make her shine. best actor performed above average only. won by default i presume coz all others were either not so good at english or exaggerated their characters or had too small roles.

p/s. td14 students are proud of their classmates performance, proud that they made it this far. congrats to ganesan, kheng kuan, wei kien, leonard and gen. for us, yall gave it ur best shot adi with all the constrictions (if u get what i mean).

how could i forget...

2009-04-12T11:58:00.007+08:00

yeah... i forgot testimonials... haha... i mean how could i rite... but better late than never...=)

SHABIN... to start off the list, TD14 class rep. first impression of this fella: bloody attention seeker. sem1, first lecturer: who wants to be class representative?? he takes up his hand and offers himself. i was like "huh?!?!?" so thick skin?? then later got to know him better... turned out to be a person who i could relate to very easily, able to understand me when i speak in complicated english... haha... and turned out to be a very helpful friend and team mate. a very good gossip companion and companion for tea... haha...=)

KHENG KUAN N WEI KIEN... this couple... hou lou and hou por... haha... their dota names i think... guess they're pros oso la... haha... nice people... good team mates... last time did projects together, every1 was very cooperative... luckily... unlike their best friend... haha... i forgot wats his name adi...=)

GANESAN... this 1... bloody horny fella... haha... funny oso la... makes classes especially english tutorials very interesting. haha... always eats at the utar cafeteria... i seriously dunno how he can go back there after the first time eating at that place. maybe its coz of the all the girls he chats with so very often there la. haha... and always goes: i am singing in the rain... haha... supposed to be a line from a tamil show la... haha...=)

PYH SHIN, KOK LIM, KIAN HONG (the 3 dun really hav any connection with each other)... all 3 nice people, tho i'm not like very super close with, somehow treat me very well... kian hong's always been my team mate and lab partner since sem 1... kok lim's a chinese chess friend and at times a comforter and pyh shin's just another person to share some thoughts, chatter and fun with...

HOCK HENG... well, this 1... definitely smart... after all 4 flat worh... initially had a very good impression of him... then i heard stories (of which i tried to but could not deny... dun ask me what they were about... haha...). i thought to myself: every1's human rite... n u dun need to think that a person is perfect to be friends with them mah. i guess coz of this i offended him a bit... so yeah... sorry for watever i've done n really hope that this apology is accepted... btw, looking forward to actuarial together...=)

MIN YANG... very intellegent fella who got same results as me in sem 1 and sem 2 exams. makes him quite frustrated i guess. haha... good person for healthy competition la... n yeah... hees also taking actuarial science... n hopefully we can continue getting the same results... haha... ooh yeah... maybe can be assignment mates as well eh, if we're in the same class... anyway... looking forward to seeing him in actuarial...=)

CHIAT HOU... well, this fella... a close friend of mine which i've been sitting beside since the starting of semester 1 until now... means for bout a whole year la... i remembered the first time i brought my xiangqi to utar. this fella was so quiet, never said a word but then wanted to play chess... obviously he beat his opponent like crap la... that explains me asking him to teach me how to play lor and he did, without asking for anything back...btw... i've created a record for him, n seen his bad side (i've seen his temper... n trust me, u dun 1 2 mess with him) n his dumb side (yeah.. there are times where i feel like "wth! like this oso can ar"). but all in all, a very nice friend to have, nice to chat with, nice to laugh with.=)

SUNNY OOI... also a close friend of mine and my future room mate in setapak. not to mention the 1 who keeps me busy in front of my computer chatting and playin games almost every other day... very smart fella. nice to spend time with, friendly n always willing to help ppl. took ashley, kenneth n me to his house in penang. very hospitable and took us everywhere and made sure we had loads of fun... and food... haha... ooh yeah... also a person who sat beside me for a whole year since semester 1 till now. very nice to talk to as well. maybe coz same frequency la... its like... very easy to communicate as in like we dont even hav to finish a sentence to sorta fully understand each other... i guess... but anyhow, i hope living together wud be as nice as sitting together...haha...=)

well, to those i didn't mention, its not that i don't treat yall as my friends, just that i'm very tired of thinking of wat to write adi... haha... maybe i'll make a continuation later la... haha...but anyhow, thanks again to every1 for their friendship this far (even if it was just giving face... haha...)

week 7 of foundation

2009-04-10T20:16:00.007+08:00

coming monday is week 7 of my uni foundation (also the last teaching week b4 my degree). last week of teaching also meaning that semester exam is coming up... oooh yeah... TIME TABLE is out adi in case any1 doesn't know...

this week (week 6) has been rather hectic and to a certain extent a bit saddening. the oni consolation i have is just that i have finished my all three presentations and hav nex week rather free... and so i will look forward for CHOR DAI DEE in class (yes... i will bring cards) and XIANGQI (2 rounds ar CHIAT HOU... haha)

well, the presentations have been interesting. especially english drama. a girl (LYDIA) went into the guys toilet for me... haha... all started like this. she is my team mate for english drama. she wanted to do a rehearsal which needed me to skip classes... which i did not want to skip so she was sorta running after me in the study room to prevent me from going into class. so i decided to run into the guys toilet, thinking that she won't come in. i went into a cubicle and locked the door. then i heard a knock at the door. SHE WAS IN FRONT OF ME!!! then she pulled my shirt like a wife pulling a husbands shirt to make the poor fella do sth... haha... btw a few ppl were crowding in front of the guys toilet to see wat a girl's doing in it... haha... she went into the guys toilet for me... so i skipped class for her lor... haha... but anyhow, was a very nice experience working with u...=)

well, there hav been some not so nice things also. lousy report marks for example... (technical error la... probably my fault coz i was quite emo-ing during the time when we were supposed to do our reports)

and so... the end is near, i SINCERELY say sorry TO ALL THAT I HAVE OFFENDED. after all life's too short to hold grudges and to remember who wronged whom, so let old bonds be broken and reformed in a better way... anyway, i really had lots of fun with EVERY1 and really really gonna miss every1; including the not so nice ones (somehow i do... jauh bau bunga, dekat bau tahi)... and before its too late, GAMBATEH n GOOD LUCK every1 for finals...=)

p/s. guess i won't be updating this blog until exams end; but exception if there are any important things la (TIPS or anything... haha)

foolish... how foolish...

2009-04-09T21:01:00.002+08:00

...And sore must be the storm that could abash the little bird that kept so many warm...

its usually in trying times that you actually see things for what they really stand for...minus the hopes, imaginations and wishes... and more often than not, the truth is painful...

yan suen pat yu thin suen... and so yeah... i made my share of mistakes... putting all my eggs in one basket... and put my faith in sth... sth which i should not have put my faith into... a human heart...

so now i sit here, alone in the darkness thinking to myself what i did wrong...

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

2009-04-02T17:05:00.003+08:00

i always cherish my friends very much... and although sometimes i might not say it, or show it, i really really am thankful that y'all are around when i need help n all... almost all my life has been smooth sailing coz of my friends. they may be my close friends and may also be casual ones... or may even be the ones who don't really fancy my character but still offer their help in times of need.

so... theres this thing about me where i feel about my friends... particularly about those who i feel close to... if happy then happy lor... if sad then... sadly, i wun be far frm that as well...

TODAY, i saw two sides of the world in a single stare. good friends and terrible friends. i'll start with the good...

its assignment-hand-in week in utar. every1 is rushing to finish their assignments n slides for presentation. me including. then i took it upon myself to complete a large amount of work. in the middle of a conversation i was having with a close friend of mine, comes Mr.S saying:"jian fung, i'll take this load off u la... then u can concentrate on doing the other task." my head was so spinning before that and i was so so so happy he did that... i mean nowadays, how many people actually offer to help other people??? seriously, i am very thankful for having this friend in my life.

then comes the other side of the world. i have this friend who is sick and yet his group members want him to stay back and help out with the assignment which he already did more than his part. i was there at the end... one of them was like: DON'T WASTE MY TIME LA.. I OSO 1 2 GO BACK HOME N SLEEP LA... in my head i was like... kns betul... other people do work until sick oso din complain, this fella, do little bit of work, make so much noise adi... n he said summore: NEXT TIME I DUN 1 2 PARTNER U ALL ANYMORE AR... then i was like about to blow adi. but after all... if the victim doesnt want to say anything, who am i to even open my mouth?? sigh...

happy birthday(s)...

2009-04-02T16:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO:

SEOW CHOON HUI ...

AND SIEW WENG CHUNG...

all the best to both of u eyh...

btw... got any outings... if u 4gt to call me, i WILL kill u ar... haha...

borders...

2009-03-31T20:03:00.003+08:00

given the recent events that is happening around me, i find it really baffling that so many people are such SAD ACTS. don't get me wrong (to all td 13-td 16 ppl reading) i am NOT ONLY referring to the hottest topic in my class... but also in other classes. (yes, there are people in other classes who also LEACH on other people.)

in the beginning, really, the kasihan part gets the better of me, but the more PARASITICAL the situation gets, the more unwilling i am to help some people who never appreciate what you do for them. actually i never expected any return la... but thats bloody OBVIOUS. coz when do u think some slug can turn handy and help you when u need it?? NEVER...

time and time again, they get chances to better themselves, yet they throw it away as if second chances wil always come knocking at their doors. WHY CANT YOU BLOODY FUCKING JUST DO UR WORK LA! some people give excuses as if they are like goddamn bloody important... i mean like "I CANT DO THIS LA... MY HANDS ARE ALL TIED UP. I HAVE LOTS OF THINGS TO DO" as if every1 sits at home and does nothing. i mean GROW UP LA. every1 thinks what they do are important to them. if not then they wont do it la!

empty talk fills the air. THIS SEMESTER I'M GONNA DO THE BEST FOR ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS (that means hees agreeing with every1 else that hees a fucking parasite la). now time to hand in assignments, turns out, people think of kicking him out of their peoject teams. then go look for lecturer: MISS, THEY FORGOT TO WRITE MY NAME IN THE REPORT AR... GIMME A WHILE, I WRITE AR. bloody hell la. get a life.

i kicked a leach out from my group. but some until now keep them. one says: WHAT CAN I DO? I CANT DO ANYTHING. JUST HAV TO WAIT UNTIL DEGREE LOR. the other one: (dun say anything) SIGH. i mean, no hard feelings la, but as a friend, i really feel sad 4 u people la.

you can say i'm stone hearted coz i kicked you out. i dun giv a bloody shit for what you think of me. finally, i can tell you, it was a group decision. i was just the one who gave the news to you. probably i din tell it to u in the nicest way. but what the heck. u crossed the border with me.

this is not the only case. another, gonna go somwhere else, doesnt want to do any project work presuming it wont affect him. maybe it wont, but how can you just form a group with other people and leave them. if not be true to your friends oso hav some measure of SELF WORTH la.

***just expressing my feelings. feel alright now. btw, good luck every1 for their presentations...=)

utar foundation

2009-03-28T00:15:00.003+08:00

to come to think of it, its almost been a year since i stepped into utar... and in a few more weeks time, gonna complete this foundation course and move to my degree adi... so, recapping a whole year, it has been an experience... one which was filled with mixed feelings very much along the way...

talking about the people over here, i'll start with the bad and gradually to the good (after all, the bad is only wats nice to listen to rite... haha) ok... to start off, there r some girls i know who are like goddamn "tham yan siu phin yee"... which i think, when correctly translated means greedy for others' small favours/ benefits. recalling the incident, i have never spoken to this girl (not knowing her name but seen her face) but she somehow knows me. i wanted to photostat sth and she heard it and tumpang photostat lor... obviously i agreed la... when i got back, i told her dun need to pay la... coz i din bother to ask how much is a piece for photostating. guess wat she said... WAA, THANKS WOR. PRINT FOR FREE, NEXT TIME I ASK U TO PHOTOSTAT AGAIN HAR... then in my head i was thinking... i have never even said hi to u b4 this n here u are telling me these things?? i was thinking these ppl "tham yan siu phin yee" until they forget to retain a measure of sanity in them and forget to even act normal... i mean.. wth la... really SI LAIs IN THE MAKING.

moving on, there are some people who are goddamn attention seekers la. not that i am not one, but i dun really go to the extent of these people to really get others' attention. not to mention bloody hippocrates over here. this fella copies in the exam and yet scolds other people for copying... ****ing hippocrate rite... this fella, one of the proudest people i know, cant keep his mouth shut, crying out loud for som1 in the future to bash him up, KIASU until the earth stops spinning, yet one of the smarter people in utar. wierd rite. haha... but not to leave out, some of the attention seekers are empty in their heads la...

some sit on the sidelines waiting for a branch to cling on, and on breaking uses money to solve his problems... YES, SOME PEOPLE IN UTAR BUY FRIENDS.

not forgetting, i have seen some really wierd couples being made which even now, make me question if they are just together because they are really a pair, or just for namesake...

well, heres the silver lining. i found a number of chess friends and good friends who i am comfortable with and i generally look forward to seeing them in classes... knowing themselves, thanks for everything... and i hope i'm not the only one having that feeling... haha...

IF YOU HAVE NOTICED, NO NAMES HAVE BEEN MENTIONED. IF YOU THINK I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU, DON'T COME AND ASK ME WHO I AM TALKING ABOUT. JUST MAKE YOURSELVES BETTER SO THAT U DUN FIT INTO THE DESCRIPTION ANYMORE... haha... certainly there are lots more people i would like to talk about, but heres it for now...

just for fun...

2009-03-23T17:21:00.007+08:00

Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character. Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character you most resemble?

A group of investigators got together and analyzed the personalities of well known and modern cartoon characters. The information that was gathered was made into this test.

Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results. Don't cheat eeyh...

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
e) Going to the movies (3 pts.)

2. What is your favourite type of music?
a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
b) Alternative (1 pt.)
c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
d) Country (5 pts )
e) Pop (3 pts.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?
a) Comedy (2 pts.)
b) Horror (1 pt.)
c) Musical (3 pts.)
d) Romance (4 pts.)
e) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
a) Waiter (4 pts.)
b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
c) Teacher (3 pts.)
d) Police (2 pts.)
e) Cashier (1 pt)

5 What do you do with your spare time?
a) Exercise (5 pts.)
b) Read (4 pts.)
c) Watch television (2 pts.)
d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
e) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
a) Yellow (1 pt.)
b) White (5 pts.)
c) Sky Blue (3 pts)
d) Dark Blue(2 pts.)
e) Red (4 pts.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?
a) Snow (3 pts.)
b) Pizza (2 pts.)
c) Sushi (1 pt.)
d) Pasta (4 pts.)
e) Salad (5 pts.)

8. What is your favorite holiday ?
a) Halloween(1 pt.)
b) Christmas (3 pts.)
c) New Year (2 pts.)
d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)
e) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris (4 pts.)
b) Spain (5 pts)
c) Las Vegas (1 pt)
d) Hawaii (4 pts)
e) Hollywood (3 pts)

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a ) Someone Smart (5 pts.)
b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield :
You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy: You are fun; you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you ' re never out of style , you are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:
You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in y o ur life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:
You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points ) You are Dexter:
You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!

i got spongebob... yay... haha...=)

its so not me to be emo ing

2009-03-22T18:55:00.005+08:00

despite having a test on this coming wednesday and friday, here i am blogging...

well, lately i have been very not myself... not having the appetite to eat much and being very emo...

well, i dont know how many of you have felt this very disturbing feeling... but it feels like its so difficult to breathe... especially now that its been raining a lot, it feels like sad emotions are filling the air and its just so depressing... anyway... it feels like my heart is very heavy and every breath that i take in is like so heavy... so heavy that i am forcing myself to breathe just to continue living this dreadful life which i cannot end using any means that would lead me to more uncertain suffering... it feels like the air is so dense and every breath that i take in is like some poisonous fume that would intoxicate me to the extent that i wish to end this very existence but yet... its not enough to take my breath away forever...

sadly, i know the cause of this problem, yet the solution is not mine to decide. its a human problem. and until that person knows that i am having this problem and decides to spare me further pain and give me a solution, i don't know what to do...

the right thing i know i should do now is just to leave it and concentrate on my responsibilities but its so impossible to do...

yet in the midst of all this confusion, i am begining to understand:

sabbe sankhara dukkha, anicca, anatta.

chess 2007...

2009-03-21T21:12:00.003+08:00

being me with nothing better to do, i went and typed my name in yahoo and wanted to see what came out...

the last time i did that i saw bangsar chess results 2007... which i got 3rd in individual section... this time... i think they took the post down adi... coz it wasnt there anymor... sigh...

this time the first 2 results were weixing's blog and dickson's blog... then i was trying to find the 1 with chess... but cudnt find any... then i stumbled across this...
http://www.cempaka.edu.my/photogallery_html/MSSMKL_InterZonChessTournament2007/index.htm

and saw this...

these were the last memories of my chess moments in mssmkl... one picture with half my face and another two of the back of my head... now i am so thanking MBS for having us win championships for them and doing NOTHING to have us remember our achievements... cud at least hav asked the teacher advisor to take picture rite!!! kns mbs... really kns that i hav to go to a rival school website to find a picture of me in a competition leh... sigh... now i just hav to remember those moments carefully in case i 4gt any of them... all mbs fault

tagged by sunny

2009-03-19T17:21:00.002+08:00

1. YOUR REAL NAME: Adrian Beh Jian Fung

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) : Adrizzle... a drizzle?? haha real gangsta name... haha... sounds like the weather forecast...

3. YOUR SPY NAME: (favorite colour and favourite animal). Purple Dog...

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (your middle name and street you live on/or neighborhood if it's a number). Jian Fung Kerawang... haha... so lame la...

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, and first 2 letters of your first name).
Funad...

6. YOUR SUPERHERO/CRIMINAL NAME: (your 2nd favorite colour, and favourite drink).
Yellow coke

7. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your last name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, and 3rd letter of your dads): Anfih... haha... founds iraqi... haha...

8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (parents middle names). Buck Sally... more like buckcherry... haha...

9 . YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets). Black coco

10 . YOUR HOOD NAME: (first 3 of your first name, and add -iqua): Adriqua...

i'll tag any1 who wants to do this tag...

decleration of independence

2009-02-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

with the power vested in myself, i hereby proclaim the end of chemistry and physics for beh jian fung from this second henceforth.

_______________________________

yeh... thats rite... i dun hav to study chem n physics anymore... yay me!!! from now on... its just maths, econs, n things other than physics and chemistry... dun get me wrong... its not that i dun like those 2 subjects. i love them. i just hate the exams for those 2 subs...=)

mixed feelings...

2009-02-25T13:59:00.002+08:00

holidays coming to an end....sigh...

new semester starting... ish...

a step closer to degree... yeah!!!

did okay for sem 2 exams...

thats bout all...

with great shame

2009-02-12T21:25:00.004+08:00

after knowing that our beloved syed hamid albar and ong tee keat are from mbsskl, i feel great shame to tell people that i hail from the ONCE great Methodist Boys' School. below are clips 1, 2, 3 n 4 of hard talk...

just look at how our beloved home minister makes a mockery of himself on international tv... sigh...

utter rubbish

2009-02-12T21:02:00.003+08:00

it is interesting to know that:

in malaysia, supposedly a democratic country, one person has the power to dissolve parliment or choose not to dissolve it. unless that one person constitutes 51% of a particular place la... but i guess it wun happen coz the person wud probably need to hav half a siamese twin inside them...

in malaysia, the state/shariah law or even can over rule the federal constitution which is supposed to be the rule of law. every state in malaysia has state laws. since the state laws can over rule the federal constitution, wat use is the federal constitution?? i seriously wonder...

in malaysia, u get in trouble for sue ing a sultan. /*unless the sultan is a perfect person la... but ooo yeah... i just remembered, some shallow people actually think so...*/

p/s. ~~i think it is with great pity that barisan nasional has resort to such "constitutionally sound" practices to "win" back the state of perak. i wish all perakians well for having such a great sultan who takes care so well, their democratic rights to vote for who they wish to rule the state.

thats all for now...

what is truth?

2009-02-11T20:09:00.002+08:00

i remembered one time a christian preacher came up to me to try to convince me to go to church and about christianity. at that time i already had my head quite set on my current religion, buddhism.

it then occured to me, which is the truth??

i then read that we

should not go upon what has been acquired by repeated hearing
nor upon tradition
nor upon rumor
nor upon what is in a scripture
nor upon surmise
nor upon an axiom
nor upon specious reasoning
nor upon a bias towards a notion that has been pondered over
nor upon another's seeming ability
nor upon the consideration, "The person is our teacher."
Now, when you yourselves know: "These things are good; these things are not blamable; these things are praised by the wise; undertaken and observed, these things lead to benefit and happiness," enter on and abide in them.'

this really makes sense to me and so that is the definition of truth which i believe in from that day until now... so, truth is to me defined as what is good and does not bring harm or sadness to any other being. in that sense, truth does not belong to any one religion, but is something mutual if that religion preaches to their followers to do good and relieve the suffering of others.

then, no one should say that my religion is superior to your religion or anything like that, or just because one religion preaches a different goodness as the other, then it is wrong.

btw, i stumbled upon this verse some time ago and think its worth sharing since this topic is inter religious.

“There is only one religion; the religion of Love
There is only one language; the language of the Heart
There is only caste; the caste of Humanity"

so, if everyone has this in mind, i hope people try to see the similarities in every religion and practice goodness to all, irrespective of religious labels and not to divide people by trying to convert as many people to their religions as possible.

sth's missing...

2009-02-11T08:54:00.002+08:00

yeah... its holiday time for me now... but i dunno y it doesnt feel like it... so depressing... maybe its coz of the goddamn exam... but... sigh... dun wanna talk bout it anymore...

anyway... yesterday, after the last exam, i went back to mbs coz they said the spm 2007 certs were ready to collect. but when i got there, they said there was no such thing. so kanasai. i am so dissapointed with mbs... but what should i expect of it since i'm not there anymore?? haha...

but it was worth it... met few old friends... had a nice chat with some of them... chatted with the teachers oso... n that brought back so much memories... nice memories... which now thinking of it, fills up wat i said was missing... so anyway...

i want to enjoy my holiday now... so...bb...

all i need for the next week

2009-02-02T12:33:00.003+08:00

FELIX FELICIS

for all who don't know what this is, its a potion that is "Lady Luck" in liquid form. Felix Felicis makes the drinker lucky for a period of time, dependening on how much is drunk, during which time everything they attempt will be successful. It must be used sparingly, however, because if taken in excess it causes giddiness, recklessness and dangerous overconfidence. It is highly toxic in large quantities, and is also a banned substance in all organised competitions. It is very difficult to make, disastrous to get wrong and must stew for six months before it is ready to be drunk.

Effects

Felix Felicis possibly works by providing the drinker with the best possible scenario. This usually registers in the drinker's mind as an unusual urge to do a certain action, or as a voice telling him to do so. The effectiveness of the potion thus depends on the cooperation of the drinker with the voice, for the drinker may choose not to obey whatever the voice tells him to do. This is easily remedied, however, as the potion does not single out only one scenario, but changes paths as the situation unfolds.

p/s. i need luck for physics, chem, programming, maths n public speaking...

ending without starting

2009-02-01T21:59:00.002+08:00

i am so so so so so looking forward to the end of the exams b4 it even started... exam, coz of the rescheduling, now ends on the 10th of feb... and past few days i hav been thinking so much bout things i wanna do after the exam in the 3 weeks break... n i cant wait for it!!!

so... thats all for now... gonna pack my bags for english tmrw... wish me luck every1... =)

disclaimer

2009-01-31T13:49:00.001+08:00

... forgot to add disclaimer to the previous post. the owner of this blog or the writer of the post will not be liable for any loss or anything whatsoever relating the consequences of following the previous post. blah blah blah... remember these are not tips, just a guide... ooo yeah... GOOD LUCK EVERY1 FOR THE COMING EXAM!!!

guide to chemistry...

2009-01-31T12:46:00.004+08:00

i can't believe i'm blogging bout chemistry... sorry ar sunny... took ur idea... i am seriously bored and dunno wat to do... haha... but anyhow... for the utar chem paper, to start off with, i have seen 4 parts according to the past papers... 1 organic and 3 inorganic...

the 1 inorganic is quite simple because its mainly about physical properties... like atomic radius, boiling point, melting point, trends n all... together with electron configuration.

start off with electron configuration... there are 3 types. noble gas box notation (must memorize the noble gasses with their proton numbers), box notation (with the arrows... remember to fill the electrons in according to spin direction first), and spdf form (1s2 2s2 2p6 3s2 3p6 3d10 4s2 4p6... and so on). as for atomic radius, must always say nuclear charge, shielding effect/ screening effect, then effective nuclear charge and then its effect on the valance electron cloud... for the melting boiling points, remember intermolecular forces (metallic bonds, hydrogen bonds n Van der Waals forces)... for ionization energy and elecrton affinity, its ability to deal with electrons, again having to talk about atomic radius, not so in depth, but say how the nuclues attracts the electron.

next is 3 organic questions.

first is naming and drawing. second is mechanism, tests for differentiating, and physical properties. third is chemical reactions.

for naming, the important this is to know the functional groups.

alcohol... -C-OH... -ol {methanol}

ether ...-C-O-C-... name has ether at the end. {dimethyl ether. CH3OCH3}

amine (has three types)... -C-NH2 (primary), -C-NHC- (secondary), and -C-N-C-C-( tertiary, where the third carbon is bonded to the nitrogen atom)
name...-amine {methylamine, CH3NH2}

nitrile... -C-CN... -nitrile {ethanenitrile}

ester...-C-COOC-... -oate {methyl ethanoate, name the alcohol part first then only the carboxylic acid}

amide... also has three types. primary, secondary and tertiary. -C-CONH2 (primary)
-C-CONHC- (secondary), and -C CONC-C- (tertiary)...- amide {ethanamide}

carboxylic acid chloride... -C-COCl... -oyl chloride {ethanoyl chloride}

carboxylic anhydride...- COO-COC-... oic anhydride. {ethanoic anhydride}

thats about all for naming... not to mention trans is opposite, cis is same side. there are times where one compound has more than 1 functional group. say CC double bond with an OH... the naming would be sth like propene-2-ol... or sth...=) if u totally dunno, then just name what you know as systematically as possible. worst comes to worst, good luck tikaming...=)

*** always check that carbon has 4 bonds, while nitrogen has 3 bonds. plus memorize the names for arene compounds.

then its mechanisms n tests. tests cant help...must memorize. for mechanisms, remember nucleophile attacks electroplile. negative attacks positive. but first, u must form a negative ion from a neutral molecule to attack the other reactants. usually, the catalyst will help to form the negative ion, or the reactant will be reactive on its own and break up to form negative ion naturally. usually there are 2 reactants. just exchange what you think is right. it helps when u know some basic reactions, can guess the more complec ones. but obviously the best is memorize all la...

then physical properties... i think they will ask about acidity or bacisity or sth like that. for acidity, look at ability to release H atom, more of how strong the hydrogen atom is bonded to the organic compound u have. (affected by bonding group whether electron donating like methyl or electron withdrawing groups like halogens and benzene ring.) for basicity, look at ability to accept hydrogen atoms, usually by dative bonds, thus needing electrons to be contributed (electron withdrawing like phenyls will attract the lone pair e of nitrogen resulting in nitrogen having less electrons to form dative bond, making it less basic).

**closely looking at it, acidity,basicity, ionization energy, electron affinity and reactivity has almost the same explenation. go figure. malas to type adi.
the last part i will post a summary of all the reactions later. comments please...:)

6th day of cny...

2009-01-31T12:18:00.003+08:00

GONG XI FA CHAI every1... din update earlier coz i was in internet-less ipoh... where i was there until day b4 yesterday...

coming back here is such a mood spoiler... wanting to have fun and yet having to study for the semester exam on monday... actually i'm quite happy with the push forward of the public speaking exam from the 3rd to the 10th of feb... coz i got mor time to study all the other subjects... (compensating for the time i wasted having fun)

anyway... this new year was interesting coz i had my first mahjong invitation from my cousin!!! we played through the night and i made bout 11 bucks:)... haha... as if thats alot la... but better than nothing...

din play any cards this year though... outdated adi... so now the oni place to play cards is on viwawa... haha...

ooo yeah not to mention i just got a facebook account and i am quite into this game... mafia wars... haha... interesting... but a definite waste of my time... haha...

thats all for now...i better get back to studying...

*** just read sunny's blog... eeh... too free ar?!?!?... come gimme tuition la... oo yeah hor... u were supposed to tutor me on chem~~~~~***

a different point of view...

2009-01-05T22:47:00.004+08:00

should there be any complications,
there is always a problem.
so to dissolve the complication, the problem should be solved.
to solve the problem, it should be located first.

one day, in the days of old, there was a hole in the ground which was said to contain gold. everyone tried to put their hands in to pick the gold up, but none succeeded. all of them said the hole is too deep.

would there be a chance that the reach of their arm is too short??

*** really, wud it be the reach of their arms be too short?? i seriously pray not...***

but anyhow, maybe the problem is ourselves and not really so much of "the problem". its just... a different point of view... and i'm working on it...:)

the very begining... of 2009

2009-01-01T12:17:00.003+08:00

first of all, a very HAPPY NEW YEAR to every1...=)

**RANDOM acts on NEW YEARS EVE (with weiguang, weixing, n my sis)...

the last 2 hours of 2008 were rather interesting... which started off with me chatting with weiguang on msn and ended us up in town and back to where we started... ok... to start off... i suddenly... out of nowhere asked weiguang if he wanted to go out anywhere to celebrate the new year... n he said yes.. so we decided to meet at a 24 hour mcd at kuchai lama... which we did meet and then decided that it was the crappiest place to be to celebrate new year so we did sth very random by going to town...

parked at somplace near sungai wang and we walked to pavillion n times square... ended up at starbucks in times square where we had frappucinos and surprisingly chor dai dee until like 230... then it was late n thought of goin bac home... which we almost did except for the 3 n a half hour detour to the same mcd where we started off and continued dai dee over there...this time since coke was free, the biggest loser had to drink a cup of coca cola... for every loss... so that was quite fun... until my sis got a call frm my dad asking to go home... which i finally did... and so this was how i spent the starting of my new year... *loved the fun n laughter n chatter that we had... probabaly my best new year yet...*

since its the start of the year, i have decided that everything not worth remembering in the past year be left behind and look forward to a gr8 year with every1... even with those i din mix very well with... so this is sorta my hope for the year...

**going to do gardening later... goin to do it even if it rains or shines... guess wat... goin to be gardening in the gardens...XD

Tis The Season To Be Jolly

2008-12-24T18:46:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS to every1 celebrating it...=)

btw... lucky i din get sick... coz if i did, i'd be missing out on the parties today... not to mention all the food... haha... anyway... happy coz i just got my diary for nex yr... n i like it...

off to party nw!!! merry christmas again...=)

hate is a strong word

2008-12-23T22:23:00.002+08:00

first things first, CHEM is CRAP!!!

second thing, as much as i dun like using the word hate, I HATE CHEMISTRY...

conclusion: chem should go to hell

***its quite obvious to tell from here how i did in todays test...

of family and of gor tung

2008-12-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

tmrw is gor tung so today had family gathering at my god mom's place... had lots of fun chatting n catching up with every1... oso had lots of nice food... and enjoyed burning paper also... haha...=D

gor tung (winter solstice) marks the last day of long nights and shorter daytime in a day... which means after gor tung, there will be longer times with daylight than night... which according to fung shui is good coz it increases the yang energy surrounding us, compared to the ying energy... which doesnt do much good to us... but an important part of ourlives... ok enuff of fung shui talk...

today had very very nice thong yuen (balls of glutinous rice) which was my favourite of the day... supposing to symbolise reunion of the whole family...

anyway... tired adi... goin to bed now...=)

disappointed

2008-12-20T14:09:00.004+08:00

so now i guess old habits die hard... i tot that u cud prove all of them wrong... so i just tested you... but... its just so disappointing that i actually trusted you... despite everything else... but yeah... i keep what i have said...~as long as the person treats me well, i would be ok with that person; obviously unless they give me a reason to hate them~

by the way, i think physics went quite well just now... so now its left with

17 dec, maths test (over)
20 dec, physics test (over)
23 dec, chemistry test
27 dec, programming test
30 dec, writing for science test

**looking forward to goh tung dinner with relatives... together with thong yuen...=)

holiday moodish

2008-12-17T20:40:00.003+08:00

almost everyone is having holiday... sadly, i am one of those unlucky ones which have to study through december and only look forward to 2 WEEKS of holiday in the middle of february next year... anyway... thats why i cant concentrate in classes these days... even studying at home, nothing will go in my head... and whats more... tests are coming up and i adi flunked maths today... (never in a million years i wud expect to flunk maths... so u kno how bad my condition is now)

17 dec, maths test (over)
20 dec, physics test
23 dec, chemistry test
27 dec, programming test
30 dec, writing for science test

***i so hope there are tips for these tests coz i definately dun 1 2 die...

btw... good to know that wei keat is safely in canada now and enjoying his new place over there... so... all the best to him...

playing poker with sunny now... so forgot wat i wanted to write adi...

busy...

2008-12-13T08:20:00.004+08:00

yeah... i hav been quite busy lately...thats y i havent been updating my blog... anyway... heres wat i hav been busy doing...

its my first puzzle i did that is more than 50 pieces... its 1000 pieces... haha... its a preasent from my aunt for my birthday... and its even glow in the dark...*yay me... haha*

i know its an old show... but it kept me busy this whole week...finished it on thursday... anyway i loved the show... hope there are more nice shows coming up...=)

for now i think i better catch up on lectures i din pay attention to...

a picture's worth a million words...

2008-12-04T23:17:00.003+08:00

so guess what... an upgrade!!!... havent decided on the colour i wanted yet though... =)

know where you stand

2008-12-02T00:12:00.002+08:00

everyone, undoubtedly has their place in society, be it a student, a prime minister or even a road sweeper... but the thing is... people should just know their value... whether they are an asset or a liability... in other words... just know what they are worth and know where to stand...

it would be very dumb for a liability going around screaming that he is an asset when every other person knows deep down in their heart, he is a goddamn liability... but some people just do... i dont know why... maybe its inferiority complex... or peer pressure... but it so betrays them when they do that... or maybe they are just plain brainless...

they even go around criticizing others saying that the other is a liability... i mean... its just so hypocritical... thinking that they are superior to another person, when they are actually in a much lower position than the other... anyway

i will say no more... coz i wanna sleep now...

birthday!!!

2008-11-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

started the day with 1200 am mahjonging... was actually losing b4 midnite... then at 12oo, i won with a full hse, n i had so many flowers, i never had b4... ever in my mahjong life... anyways... that was the starting of the happiness... during mahjong, wei keat called n wished me happy birthday and passed the phone around to whoever was sleeping over at his place to talk to me... that was so nice coz like i havent heard frm ppl like ricky tan, chi hoe, loke juinn n a few mor ppl in like a long long time...

then slept n woke up at 530!!! to wash up n go to kl sentral to send wei keat off... mixed with sadness, i din want it to make me unhappy today... so i looked at it like... i am happy for him that hees able to do what he wants in canada... n thats all that a good fren should want for another friend... so after sending him off, i had breakfast with choon hui b4 he went to college n me leave for uni...

then at uni, first lecture was writing for science, so as usual... i had xiangqi... n the oni person there was thinesh... so i played with him lor... lecture started n we had a game... which my team lost and i had to sing in class for som1 elses fault *i am not gonna say who* but had fun though... sang mandy by westlife...

after lecture as usual, went to study room, n every1 sang happy birthday to me...:)

proceeded to wendys at jaya one... the people who went for the lunch were:

ashley
sunny
shaun
pyh shin
ganesan
gen
leonard
benson
li huat
chiat hou
thinesh
kazuki
liew
kenneth
and obviously me:)

at wendys, sunny and ashley belanja-ed me to eat half pound burger... thanks wei!!! =) chatted for quite a while there b4 goin bac to my usual business of none other than xiangqi ing... haha... so when got bac to utar, xiangqi ed with wen jer and khai yi... was so lucky the whole time... losing oso can win... win oso win with nice combination... haha... *thanks both of u for letting go water to make me happy... haha*

thats bout whole day in uni...

then went for dinner at backofen (austrian food)... was very nice... enjoyed time with family... even my aunt came down frm melaka to hav dinner with me... and obviously had wine as usual...=)

anyway i 1 2 sleep now... and btw... thanks to every1 for the birthday wishes and the preasents... i really had a nice birthday this year... especially the gatherings... so thanks to everyone who contributed and helped and attended and stuff, coz i am really grateful... =)

last day of being 17...

2008-11-26T23:03:00.011+08:00

this is the sad fella i was talking about in my last post..., mr dancer... this is not the best... i havent got janson's video yt... i think he got de fella doing some funny yoga pose... haha... (if u can see frm the video, the ball went into the longkang... hahaha)

enjoying my last day of being 17 yrs old, went to temple rite after uni... and now spending my time playing dance dance revolution on my cuz's ps2... haha... heres some pics i took frm temple...

anyway... my mom even put up the christmas tree adi...=)

***the outing pictures will be up soon...

a day to remember

2008-11-24T17:04:00.005+08:00

23rd of november... gathering for my b'day and phua's farewell... to start off... heres who came...

he hui
paul kong
giok aik
wai lun
weiguang
harry
weng chung
thiam sang
choon hui
andrew ang
joel wong
hew zhen
wei liam
hakim (for a very short while)
and obviously me and wei keat...

the day started when i had to pick choon hui up from the lrt station to go to mid valley... went quite early... bout 12 coz wanted to prepare wei keat's farewell gift and to jalan jalan... went to borders to get a card for him... and while i was there i wanted to get a book... was holding it around coz it was the last book n i din 1 any1 other than me buying it... so it was while i was talking to weiguang, this choon hui asked me for the book coz he wanted to read it... so i just handed the book over to him and continued my conversation with weiguang... suddenly he comes back saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAN FUNG!!! took me a few seconds to realise that he had bought the book for me... haha... tanx again... to thiam sang oso... then weiguang got 2 preasents and asked my to choose 1 for myself... i asked choon hui to pick for me coz cudnt make up my mind... haha...

after that then decided to go for lunch coz was hungry adi... went to nandos... thats where every1 else came... n thats when we gave wei keat the picture n frame we bought for him... took a few pictures over there... then decided to go for bowling... and since haagen dazs was on the way, wai lun took me for it... cost bout 25 bucks... tanx wei!!! it was so very very nice n i havent had any of it this year... i had 2 scopes... mango and strawberry... n they put fresh fruits on it n all... so enjoyed that...

then went for bowling... beside our lane, there was this MR DANCER who was like high on crack or sth... he danced and danced while he was bowling... obviously he was all alone... haha... occupying 2 lanes... n he wud like kneel to the ground everytime he thought he wud get a strike or spare... n oso some funny sorta exarcise as if he was like making some magic so he cud get a strike or sth... entertained us most of the time...

anyway after bowling it was bout 6 i think... n we cudnt decide where to go... so we went to mph for a while and then went to madam kwans for dinner... but b4 that... we went to "toys r us" and had some fun there playing with the toys n all... haha... like big children...

at madam kwans, hakim dropped by for a while... a very short while... so there we ate and chatted n had fun... haha... sorta catching up and telling jokes n all...

then walked around gardens n sat n chatted again n took pictures... most importantly with phua lor... coz dunno when gonna see him again... thats bout all of the day lor... other than me sending choon hui bac to mckl... so thats all for now

*** by the way, tanx to every1 who got me preasents... really appreciated all of them...... tanx again =)

pictures will be updated later when i hav all of them...

nov 23

2008-11-21T18:34:00.002+08:00

wei keat's farewell and my b'day gathering
mid valley
sunday
23 nov
1430 hours
every1 meet in front of GSC...

looking forward to see old frens there...=)

down memory lane...

2008-11-20T20:25:00.006+08:00

the past events of today really really made me think of you very very much u kno... n it seems i m still quite in love with you and missing you very badly now... i can hear ur voice right now in my head as if we just finished the best conversation in my life... i still miss just staring st ur face... and u saying to me "wat r u staring at" with the lovliest tone of voice... i miss the touch of your skin... i miss making the list of things that we have in common and just talking until sth else comes up... i miss... i miss everything about you...

but... when i think of the little time i hav to spend with u, i feel its unfair to you coz both of us kno u really deserve much better... knowing that both of us are so far away from each other, its really difficult to do a good job as a friend... what mor a bf... so... its really not that i want to let go... but if you love som1, all you want is whats best for them and not wats the most convenient for you... i really don't know wat i did to get you coz i really dunno wats so attractive about me... but despite all of these,

i love everything about you... my one and only ______ ___ __ ___. i m just hoping our paths one day really do cross again and i can tell you that i am still so madly in love with you and at the same time knowing that i can bear any consequences that come with it... but for now,

how deep the meaning of love, how high the price of parting...

finished chem test today...

2008-11-19T19:25:00.011+08:00

chem test done today:)... whats done is done so i dun 1 2 think of it anymor... but heres wat i hav in line... still got public speaking & communication test but 4gt whens it adi... 6 dec i think... but for now... problem solving and programming is all the crap i hav to think about... btw...

today was my first time dota ing with a person... haha (lame rite) haha... stopped at first blood to save time... played with pyh shin... obviously, being a newbie, i was also a feeder... haha... *** played while waiting for chem test to strt when havent finish revising yet... ***

12 nov... maths (done)
15 nov... physics (done)
19 nov... chemistry (done)
22 nov... problem solving and programming (crap)

very very sien

2008-11-16T21:26:00.002+08:00

as much as i hav to be studying now, i am very much not in the mood to do so... i just want to kick back n relax now... actually was just thinking of wats the use of studying so hard in the first place... after all, uni is just bout getting a degree rite... n to get that u just need to PASS exams oni wat... so... i m just thinking of getting just nice results to pass while enjoy whats left of my days of being a child...

amazing

2008-11-15T16:33:00.002+08:00

amazing... just plain amazing... how som1 so stupid can think that they are so smart... it baffles me... really, it intrigues me how some stupid, really idiotic people can go around boasting and blowing so much water, he could blow up a tsunami out of a teacup. yet, though the water blowing is completely and utterly far fetched to the extent that i would kill myself if it were true, no one seems to tell him... "eeh, just please stop crapping"... obviously, i am terribly annoyed my this fellows goddamn bloody mouth that never ceases to bring trouble to any1 around. for the sake of every1, just keep ur thoughts to urself and ur damn bloody smart opinions at the tip of ur tongue... or save it for later when i m not around.

signing off very pissed off...

tests... sigh

2008-11-15T12:56:00.003+08:00

12 nov... maths (done)
15 nov... physics (done)
19 nov... chemistry (sigh)
22 nov... problem solving and programming (even more sigh)

meantime, i will be spending my time xiangqi ing with any1 who wants to... haha...

shuffle

2008-11-13T21:03:00.002+08:00

haha... shuffle... i m not learning to shuffle la... just that....

yeah... i got an ipod shuffle!!! it was given to my mom by som handphone company... so i cudnt choose the colour... thats the oni thing la... its the pink 1... but i think i'll get used to it when i use it... haha...

so... downloading i tunes now...

ps. i am happy today... haha... (despite having physics test on saturday and i havent started studying)

gathering...

2008-11-11T18:19:00.003+08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT: gathering for phua's farewell to canada n my b'day
(wei keat wanted to put it together since he is leaving on the same day as my b'day... bt feels kinda wierd to be publicising my own b'day gathering tho... haha... co party at least)

MID VALLEY
23 NOVEMBER, SUNDAY
1430 HOURS

no party crashers pls... pls call event manager (janson wong) to tell him if ur coming:)
all 5clancy(2007) frens are invited and others can oso tag along... haha... just every1 notify b4 comin la... other information, call janson wong (wong jian xiong)... can find his number in excelsior 2007 page 249... haha... lookin forward to see every1 again:)

hope is the thing with feathers

2008-11-09T21:31:00.003+08:00

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

:'(... hope really is the thing that perches in the soul... coz thats the oni thing u can actually have along with u all the time...

it just occured to me that wei keat is leaving for canada on the 27th of nov... n thats so sad coz thats supposed to be a happy day for me... nevertheless, for the person who managed to be class monitor for 5 years in a row, i wish u all the best in everything u do... n keep in touch ok...:'(

so wei keat, this is for u...

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
May you always have plenty
The glass never empty
Know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
As every year passes
They mean more than gold
May you win and stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

i kno its like bout 18 days b4 u leave... but... this is just wat i m feeling nw... so just capturing the moment... frens forever...:)

i have a habit

2008-11-08T13:54:00.001+08:00

a very bad habit... its trying to prove others wrong... i like to argue n argue n argue sometimes without even knowing what i am talking about... it is also very much my style to want to prove that questions in exams n exercises are wrong... i mean coz its so fun to say that other things are wrong n the oni thing that is correct is none other than me... n that feeling is just so nice... haha...

anyway... feeling much better frm yesterdays not feeling so well... obviously la... i slept at 9 last nite n woke up bout 830 this morn... bt still feeling tired tho...

n yeah... soree to wei keat, choon hui, weiguang n all... coz i cudnt go ts today... i so wanted to go... bt... as much as i wanted to see every1, i cant... nex time la...

sick...

2008-11-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

i so hate being sick...

i hate the feeling when i 1 2 vomit n cant vomit... its so goddamn bloody torturing...
i hate it when i cant play xiangqi when want to... coz cant play when sick mah... later get brain damage... seriously...
i hate it that i cant eat anything coz i'll vomit everything i eat out again...
i hate it when i dun hav the energy to argue with others...
i hate the feelng in my head that keeps me awake so i cant sleep...
i hate that my whole body is aching whenever i move...
i hate it that my eyes are so sore looking at things...

theres enuff of things i hate... i just want to get well soon...

crème de la crème

2008-11-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

long has it been a habit for me to only rub shoulders with the creme... so much so that i thought that it would be lasting... to a certain extent it would be good because thats where the heart beats and for the healthy competition... but... as time goes by... nothing much is actually lasting... and so that brings me to my predicament...

u cant find the creme just like that... they dont come by all the time and when they do... u just hav to sorta try to cling on if u 1 2... coz... new environments tend to mix everything up... n break hierachies which have been built and lasted in the past... and i hate it...

it terribly disgusts me when people with ntg between their ears try to boast in front of me... or anywhere around me for that matter... at least if u try to blow water oso try sth that sorta makes sense and not so easily see through...

i always get what i want... so... i hate resistance... coz that means extra work for me to get what i want... coz at the end of the day... i will always have the last laugh... so... i hate ppl who go against me...

ps. i do not mix well with the brainless and water-blowers...

~~if u dont understand what i am saying... dun worry... coz i dont... i m just scribbling down me feelings at the moment... which means... i oso dun understand what i am writing...

order of the phoenix, half blood prince

2008-11-02T01:31:00.004+08:00

just finished watching order of the phoenix again on hbo... n heres the scene i love the most...

anyways... it got me very anxious about half blood prince coz i read the book n i so kno that its gonna be so good this time... n i remembered warner bros said that it wud be out this yr... 21 nov... but nw they postponed it to nex yr... 17 july... so i'll be waiting till then... meantime, heres the trailer for the half blood prince...

happiness is the journey

2008-11-01T05:56:00.005+08:00

that was the title of my public speaking presentation... and ms sharon said it was philosophical but straightforward... haha... so that made me quite happy... n so i decided to share with all of u and hope maybe u'll get sth frm it or giv me some feedbac...

ok... i started off explaining the title of the presentation... i decided that happiness is the journey because many people make it their destination instead of the journey... it sounds like this: i'll be happy when
a) i finish my spm n go uni or college... not knowing that its tougher in the latter
b) when i get a good job... not knowing theres taxes to pay n so on...
c) and when they get married they say "i'll be happy when my children grow up"
and soon... so the list never ends... thats what i mean by people making happiness the destination... n as can be seen, these people wudn't exactly be the happiest people in the world...

then i defined happiness in my own perspective... which is:
a) not getting everything you want... because that is obviously impossible...
b) instead, its having peace of mind,
c) be guilt free,
d) basically to have minimized or reduced the causes of unhappiness...

then i stated my "path to happiness" which comprises of:
i) doing what is good and right
ii) being mindful
iii) and understanding and accepting the reality of life...

well, so now for the explenation, doing what is good and right...
this sounds easy but if u think frequently enuff, u will find that its not as simple as it looks... but anyhow... this relates to happiness because doing that is good and right, we are always guilt free and confident of all our actions at any point in time... and i defined:
i) good actions as actions that ease the suffering of others or make others happy
ii) right actions aas actions that do not cause unhappiness to others...

next is being mindful... its related to happiness because we often neglect what is right and good when we are not mindful of our actions... examples are when we are drunk, on drugs or sleepy... so when we are mindful of our actions, we constantly monitor them to make sure no wrong doing is done accedentally.

then its understanding and accepting the reality of life... and the reality of life i am talking about is not any simple reality like i am a boy or she is a girl... the reality of life that i am talking about is everything is impermanent... by saying that, we also should realise that we too would die one day... and we never knw when that day would come... so in the mean time, live life to the fullest... also, keeping in mind that everything is impermanent, we will find it easier to let go of some things and find it easier to forgive others n all...

so that leads to the conclusion which is we should try to find happiness in everything life has to offer...

quote: we are not able to change the cards we are dealt, only the way we play it...

so... that was my 5 min presentation n i hope u all hav gained sth here n giv some feedbac... =)

wrong timing...

2008-10-31T18:20:00.003+08:00

so crappy leh... today i just filled a full tank in my car... once i turned on the engine n heard the radio... it said pertol will go down by 15 sen tmrw... crap!!! nvm la... i calculated... save bout 5 bucks oni...

anyway... was quite happy bout public speaking... (there was a 5 min presentation n my tutor asked to see her is we wanted her comments)... so i went to see her... n she said... i think that u think u did badly rite... then i said yeah... she said on the contrary, i did quite well... n when i asked her on a scale of 1 to 10, she said 8!!! so i was happy until i 4gt bout it la... coz today implicit differentiation filled my head...

btw... i had my first guinness draught today... *i oni like to drink guinness, somehow... but the usual i drank is foreign extra stout... i heard draught was much better than fes so was always eager to try it*... and i finally did... n it was good...

so thats bout all... gtg bath adi...

just my luck...

2008-10-25T08:16:00.004+08:00

just my luck that my handphone and modem had to break down at the same time... crappe rite... i was like so lost without my handphone and internet... no connection at all with the outside world... din hav a spare phone at home oso...

BUT...

every cloud has a silver lining... i hope my mom buys me a new handphone... and in case my wish comes true, i want sth better than what i previously had... (my parents can actually get a new handphone but a gedraded 1...) so yeah... i hope for a better 1...

***
school ar... mor n mor things to do adi lor... for public speaking... got presentation... n must hav report summore... so crappy... then... physics report oso crap (goin to finish adi)... then... crap... hav to do chem revision... (din pay attention in class... haha)... n tutorials...

better get bac to doin my work adi la...

tagged by sunny...

2008-10-21T22:56:00.005+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

i) beh beh/ bear bear... (oni old frens call me that k...)

ii) adrian

iii) jian fung

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD :

i) AdRiAn BjF

ii) burnin_foreva

iii) lazy bum

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

i'd be very vain to answer this column... haha...

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

i'd like to say i dont not like anything bout myself... but its obviously my shape la...

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
umm... my oni heritage is chinese i hope...

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

i) insects

ii) butterflies... haha

iii) and... umm... being ignorant

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

i) Computer

ii) Internet

iii) Handphone

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:

i) Shirt

ii) Shorts

iii) um... underwear?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:

i) 98 degrees

ii) chris daughtry

iii) Click five

~~THREE~~ FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW):

i) just stand up

ii) secondhand serenade... fall for you

iii) the script... the man who cant be moved
iv) faber drive... tongue tied

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:

i) To be appreciated

ii) To be treated good

iii) To be loved back

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

i) nice to see

ii) nice to hold

iii) nice to hear

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:

i) Eating

ii) Sleeping

iii) chess ing

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:

i) actuary

ii) psychologist

iii) chemical engineer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:

i) india (pilgrimage)

ii) japan

iii) stay at home... haha

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:

i) i m very lazy

ii) i play chess a lot

iii) i eat a lot

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:

i) i hate butterflies

ii) i m a perfectionist

iii) i like to stay at home

FIVE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
whoever who wants to do it...

of addictions...

2008-10-20T16:30:00.002+08:00

of addictions to chinese chess... xiangqi ed with chiat hou until was so goddamn late for physics practical... so dissapointed... had to lie that i was doing business the whole time in the toilet... crap rite... my first time being late for class... all coz of chiat hou's fault...

physics practical was... hmmm... umm... ummm... ok la... not as bad as i heard he was... other than that... no comment.

anyway... after physics practical... i was the first to go n the others were like... last 1 to come to class... first 1 to finish experiment n leave class... so proud of myself... n oso was able to skip the goin home jam...=)

flashback to this morning... first time putting my contact lens on on my own... took half an hour to do it... i felt like a failiure... then when went to school, ashley was like: how long u took to wear ur lens today?? ... haha... common problem... haha...

**ish... crap... 4gt to go n take the booklist from pc block...

first day... with contact lens

2008-10-19T16:37:00.002+08:00

this morning... bout 11... went to collect my free daily lens frm sg. wang. free frm ciba vision... coz i won a contest on mix fm... *are you smarter than a 12 yr old* haha... anyway... i took like 1 n a half hours to learn to wear n take off the lens... *i dun care if that was long coz i had all the time in the world* haha...

anyway... so this is my first post wearing my contacts... bit irritating tho... dun worry scl ppl... i'll be wearing it to scl whole of nex week... just to get used to it 1st...

tagged by choon hui

2008-10-19T08:59:00.003+08:00

tagged by a close old fren..**who had nothing better to do than to ask som1 to tag him!!!... haha**

The Golden Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5 . Tag at least 5 people.

1. How are you feeling today?
-wait for you...elliot yamin
got anything to do with wat im feeling ar?? dun think so... omg... i m feeling desperate????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
-you make me feel brand new... the stylistics
this is out la... haha

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
-candle in the wind... elton john
i like vunerable girls?? dun think so gua... vunerable girls... then i hav to protect them n solve their problems... i so lasy... my own problems oso i dun 1 2 solve, u 1 me to solve other ppls probs?? chi sin la!!!

4. Will you get far in life?
-sunshine... gabrielle
waa... this in nice!!! i will go as far as the sun shines!!! hope i get there as fast also... haha...

5. What do you think about very often?
-its over... jesse mccartney
how true... i always look forward to the end of ALMOST everything i do... other than sleeping n eating n playing chess

6. What is 2 + 2?
-i wanna know... joe
haha... thats appropriate... haha...

7. What's your best friend's theme song?
-belaian jiwa...
i got a few best frens 1 wor... how i kno which 1 likes this song??

8. What is the story of your life?
-flying without wings... ruben studdard
quite true oso...**i've been listenin to this song for the past few days very frequently**

9. What is/was your high school like?
-i turn to you... christina agulera
yeah... true... i turn lots to my frens... exhibit 1** harry... pinjam me the h/w to copy pls**

10. What is your motto?
-kau ilhamku... man bai
not really... but i like the song quite very much...

11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
-empty... the click five
hmm... nothing?? sth wrong here... all my frens r gr8... maybe its trying to say the opposite la... haha...

12. What do you think of the person you like?
-white flag... dido
a person who always gives in to me...yay!!

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
-my love will lead you home... christine glass
lead ppl to the right road?? how fitting for a buddhist... not that i 1 2 be a preacher... haha...

14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
-something right... westlife
obviously i think of sth rite la... if i think of sth wrong then i'll be the saddest person alive!!!

15. Describe your grandparents.
-if you're not the one... daniel beddingfield
hmm... like no connection 1...

16. How's your life going?
-tell him... celine dion n barbra streisand
sth wrong here oso...

17. What is your biggest fear?
-vincent (starry starry night)... don mclean
hmmm... this song was written 4 a crazy guy (Van Gogh)... so my fear is goin crazy?? maybe la... haha...

18. What will be played at your funeral?
-amazed...lonestar
interesting choice... haha... som1s amazed at me...xD

19. What is your hobby/interest?
-remembering you... steven curtis chapman
my hobby is remembering ppl?? haha... like ntg better to do... haha...

20. Will you have a happy life?
-bunga bunga cinta...misha omar
omg.. thats a sad song...:(

21. What do your friends really think of you?
-beautiful soul... jesse mccartney
waah... thats nice...=)

22. Do people secretly lust after you?
-beautiful in my eyes... joshua kadison
i think thats a yes... haha... *perasan* haha...

23. How can you make yourself happy?
-touch my body... mariah carey
thats so not true... haha

24. Will you ever have children?
-fei ni mo shu... tank
no connection 1...

25. What song would you strip to?
-angels brought me here... guy sebastian
haha... i was thinking mertostation shake it... haha

26. What does your mom think of you?
-catch your wave... click five
no connection again...

27. What do you think of your parents?
-wind beneath my wings... bette midler
very true...

28. What is your deep, dark secret?
-breakaway... kelly clarkson
yeah... thats bit true... i always tot my life was a wreck n i wanted to escape frm it... n breakaway... *not a secret anymor i see... haha*

29. What is your enemy's theme song?
-invisible man... 98 degees
i dun keep enemies... the question is wrong in the 1st place

30. What will you dance to at your wedding?
-best day of my life... jesse mccartney
gr8=)

HAHA..that's about it...so I'll tag...

1. sunny ooi
2. janson
3. he hui
4. ashley ten
5. any1 who wants to do it...

second chances...

2008-10-18T07:59:00.002+08:00

every1 deserves second chances rite?? so maybe... mr. dilemma (the person i blogged bout which i din quite fancy) deserves a second chance also... but wud the bimbo lecturer of mine deserve it??

so i thought of it... lifes too short to not like som1... so im starting fresh again... n granting general amnesty to all the ppl who i din like... n see how things go...

1st week of 2nd sem

2008-10-16T19:06:00.004+08:00

first weeks bout to end adi... got into the mood of xiang qi ing everyday again adi... haha...

homework n assignments goin to strt pouring in adi...***sighs***

whats worse... i got this crap lecturer again... for programming this sem... as if last sem was not enuff... this BIMBO's name is YASOTHA... she taught me computer studies last sem... this is what she had to say:

(i) u need black n WHITE ink to print using a printer
(ii) ATMs oni update the database at 12 midnite (means u can take $$ out of an ATM in the morning but oni that nite, at 12 the ATM will send the info to the database for updates)
(iii) a router is used to connect many networks together (it actually connects computers to form a network) she asked the class to change what was rite in the lecture notes into sth wrong... n whats worse... even i knew that she was wrong!!!
(iv) not to mention her infamous pronunciation of circuit (serkeood)
(v) she oso said last time our computers all had antennas to communicate with each other (it was ethernet on the lecture slides but she din prepare b4 she came to class n her eyes had problem... so yeah... she read wrongly... n oso elaborated wrongly) **tanx to sunny for remembering this... haha

n lots more la... cant remember adi... btw, she was the laughing stock of my frens n i for the past semester... n may she be mor a laughing stock than ever this sem... i really hope i hav fun making fun out of this bimbo this sem=)

***she really is a BIMBO- beauty without brains... ooo yeah... she even gave her handphone number to the class... so any1 who wants to hook up with a bimbo, feel free to contact me...

thats all 4 today=)

p/s. mere words could not begin to describe how much i HATE her

day out continued (08.10.08)

2008-10-10T11:33:00.007+08:00

was too tired to write anything mor on that day... so heres the continuation... besides... i just got the pictures frm sunny...

so it started with the results at utar... ooo b4 that... we were supposed to meet at utar at 1045... then i was like so goddamn bloody late... i oni left hse at 1100... so sunny called just when i was leaving my hse... so i was like... "on the way"... haha... btw... this is the 1st time i actually practised malaysian timing ok... ok... then the results...

sunny called me to tell me that results collected at PE block then i was telling myself... i knew it la... so i turned there. managed to get to PE block without much complications... i was so anxious to kno my results i had to take it b4 sunny n kenneth... soreee... haha... u all sud kno frm my last post... i got ok results... so was quite happy la... after all not happy oso i not goin to remark mah... so i just settled with it...

then went to klcc to meet ashley... was like 30 mins late... then i was thinking to myself..."was it my fault ar??... no1 say anyting bout being late i oso keep quiet lor..." haha... then went to watch a movie... flight of the living dead... for me la... it was bit of horror at first... then after somtime... it was so horror-full that i laughed to myself everytime som1 got sorta killed... haha...

after the 1st movie went 4 lunch... at food court... all of us had western... was ok la... that was the time the smsses all came in n went out... haha... every1 wanted to kno wat results every1 got... especially hock heng, min yang n yoong yang n liew n lots others la... haha... then din kno wat to do nex so watched another movie lor... connected... was action packed show la... nice... the oni thing was it was in canto... i understanded most of it la... but had to look at the subs few times... haha...

then went to the park... played n took pictures... haha... then on the way bac... i think i identified a goddamn gigolo... haha... this youngER malay fella was holding hands n sorta getting intimate with this older lady (a pork chop) which sunny said..."maybe its his mom leh"... haha...

anyway... then was dinner time... went to little penang... sunny took asam laksa n said tasted like the 1 in penang... i was surprised...haha... coz ashley ordered the same thing but din like it... haha...

was getting late adi... so ashley n kenneth went bac first... they had to take bus... then me n sunny went together using lrt...

then goin bac in the lrt... me n sunny were talking the whole way... n i noticed there was this 1 fella listening to our whole conversation... he was like giggling the whole time we were talking... i think he found our conversation very entertaining la... sud hav charged him entertainment fees la... haha... thats bout the whole day lor... so here r the pictures...

the quest goes on...

2008-10-10T00:04:00.003+08:00

the quest for finding the 4 flatters in the recent semester exam... so if any1 knows any1 with a 4 flat in the recent sem exam... pls report to this site with their name n td... haha... just very curious to kno who did well la... ntg much...

btw, my results got me quite excited bout the presidents or deans list... obviously i 1 2 get in the list la.. haha... most of all hope they giv me $$$$$... haha...

anyway, heres sth i say that was quite fun... zero dollar... haha... the reason its circulated is not so funny tho... its protesting the breakdown of the American economy... just to get attention la...

day out...

2008-10-08T23:14:00.003+08:00

interesting day of mixed feelings...

first went to collect results at utar...(dun ask me why i went to collect it tho i cud check it on9... haha) then got my results... bit happy, bit not happy lor... happy coz i can continue my scholarship... not so happy coz got A- for physics... so unexpected for me... coz i really wanted an A for it...=(

but anyway... its passed so... looking forward to nex sem...

so this is my results... so ppl... stop askin me wat i got ok..=)

after collecting results... then went out to klcc with sunny, kenneth n ashley...

was nice outing... watched 2 movies=)

flight of the living dead n connected (canto show)... i think i prefered connected... haha...

then played in the park... haha... n took some pictures was quite fun... havent got it yt... still with ashley...

thats the summary of the day la... haha... tired adi... 1 2 sleep...

so anyway... congrats to all who got good results...

dilemma

2008-10-07T15:28:00.002+08:00

between what is right and what is easy...

one of the biggest problems i have is actually with people... i mean...i am ok with the ones i am comfortable with... just not with the ones i dun like hanging around me thats problematic... i mean... i dun want to tell them... like... get the hell out of my face or sth like that... but its also terribly irritating having those people around you... like the're sapping the living daylight out of you... so thats my dilemma...

the dilemma of a try-to-be-goody-goody person... so, if u kno who u are just please back off coz i really hate u being around me... ok?...=)

tagged by weng chung

2008-10-04T00:57:00.002+08:00

This is by far the longest tag ever in the history of blogging ! Fyi, it’s a 100 questions tag. And it’s also the 1st tag I am doing since I step foot in blogging. Here goes nothing !

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

I’ve tagged:

Choon Ming
Dickson
Wai Lun
Wei Yuan
anyone who wants to do it...

01. What have you been doing recently?
holidaying lor... trying to pick up reading... as if i havent had enuff... haha

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
neh

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
what else... eating la!

04. When did you last cry?
cant remember leh

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
sth like that la...

06. What do you want in your life right now?
lots n lots of money... duh!

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
umbrella

8. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
definitely my 2 blankets:)

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
pants...

10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
Happy Birthday wishes !

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
dunno...i hope not... haha

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
not that i kno of...

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Wall-E

14. What are you proud of?
myself xD

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
dunno...

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
the man who cant be moved... the script

17. Do you have any nicknames?
bear bear?? haha

18. What does your last received text message say?
god bless u by pn munirah... haha...

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
12 gua...

20. Are you currently happy?
yeah

21. Who gives you best advice?
myself...

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
nope

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
no1

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Yes... this goddamn bloody long tag...

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
sunny lor... (hees a new fren frm uni)

26. Do you wear toe socks?
umm...wat r those??... i dun think so tho... haha

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
mom

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yeah

29. What annoys you most in a person?
ppl who dont know where they stand and how worthless they are...

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Maybe... haha

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
No...

32. What is the colour of your room?
white

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
i m not that desperate la...

34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap?
no... its priceless!!!

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
evelyn gua

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
evelyn

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
nope

38. Do you have a life?
Yeah... duh!

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
Nope

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
dun hav 1

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
i dun remember my dreams... sadly...

42. Last time you smiled?
Moments ago

43. Have you changed this year?
I think so

44. What are you listening right now?
the man who cant be moved...the script

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
chatting on msn lor...

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open... duh

47. Is there a quote you live by?
if you decide to do sth... giv it all u got...

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
umm... hmm... sorta...

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
i can play the piano... just play oni... haha

50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
i dun think of anything during my holidays...

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
chatting n xiangqi ing @viwawa... haha

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
currently single... likely to remain so for som time to come... unless jessica alba comes knocking at my door... haha...

53. What song best describe your love life?
umm... hate that i love you... haha...

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
yeap

55. Who always make you laugh?
Friends and family

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
cantonese, malay, a little bit of Mandarin

57. Favourite website(s)?
dun hav 1

58. What’s your middle name?
jian

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
shopping @klcc

60. What do you think you are like?
i am like... a big dark room.... coz... u kno i'm there but u wun kno whats inside...

61. Who will you choose to die with?
i m ok dying alone...

62. Where have you been today?
at home...

63. What game do you play often?
chess n xiangqi n dai dee.

64. Who are you missing right now?
Not telling

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
Friends forever !

66. What are you doing right now?
Answering this crazy long tag..

67. Which primary school are you from?
Subang jaya... n seri mega

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
purple, red, yellow

69. What emotion you like to show?
=)

70. What is your life to you?
my life is important la... haha

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
sweep it away until i really hav to face it.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?

sunny

73. Who do you admire most?
myself... haha... so vain... haha

74. Which month are you born in?
november

75. How are you feeling right now?
tired... n sleepy

76. What is the time now?
1.40 am

77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
ah chung ar... one of my bestest friends lor...

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
din dye la...

79. Why are you doing this test?
ntg better to do...

80. What do you do when you’re moody?
Keep quiet and u don’t want talk to me when I’m moody.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
i dun 1 2 get married...

82. Who is more important to you?
Family !

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
spend the day at the temple lor...

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Myself !

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yeah !

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
i hav everything my heart desires... haha

87. What is your goal for this year?
do well in uni...

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
nope... everything changes la... i m realistic...

89. What feeling do you love most?
the feeling of winning chess n xiangqi... haha

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
obviously

91.What feeling do you hate the most?
Embarrassed

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Definitely !

93. Do you believe in God?
i believe in gods...

94. Who cares for you most?
Family and friends of course !

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
friends n family... i rather hav than health...

96. What will you bring when you fight?
knife gua... haha...

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
i dun regret my life... i try to take the good frm it

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
Feel like dying

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
Let it be.

100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?

sleeping...so... nite nite every1...wa ai khun liao=)

new favs

2008-10-02T00:29:00.006+08:00

my recent new fav songs... songs may nt be new tho:)

faber drive... tongue tied (guang... i din copy u ok... haha)
westlife... us against the world
metro station... shake it
just stand up... by... walaueh... so many...
chris brown... forever
colby o donnis... what u got
the script... the man who can't be moved
secondhand serenade... fall for you

i dun expect myself to life them in a few days time tho... coz those r the oni songs in my playlist...

p/s... hock heng... i just let u happy little while ni... so dun get too relaxed... haha... gg tho... lelilelibubu... haha...:)

my long lost blog...

2008-10-01T01:33:00.003+08:00

its sem break nw... n i just remembered that i had a blog... haha... just read my older posts n remembered how nice school days were n how much i miss them nw... but quite over it adi since uni started n i started meeting new frens n all...

so... first semester in utar was... interesting... met some nice frens... had lots of fun... haha... especially xiang qi- ing each n every day i went 2 uni... not that i m good at it... haha...

wei keat commented when i was out with him:
i can go old folks home n not feel left out adi... haha...

anyway... tired nw... i'll blog bout my uni life later...

ppl i will remember 4ever... (part 1)

2007-12-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

*dun worry if u dun see ur name here... its not according to order... theres still chance coz theres still part 2 ... aite...

1) choon hui... theres so many things to say bout him... good things i mean... have been said n yet 2 be said... i dunno where 2 start... haha... there r so many things we did 2gether... anyway... heres how we met... in f2... Pn Gan GK was the teacher advisor for Buddhist society... so she asked me n choon hui 2 organize afernoon session chapel thingy... on wednesdays... i did the prayers n he did everything else... haha... so thats how we started n we got closer when he sat in front of me in f3...

2) weng chung... i met this fella in f3... this sad fella got bullied by me 4 da whole yr... n surprisingly... he din move away... we chatted n all... n he was there 4 me in my 1st yr in the 1st class... coz i needed some fitting in... i mean... i din mix with much of da ppl in the 1st class in f1 n f2... so i was bit lost with some newly found aliens... n he helped me with everything...
i mean like copying h/w n all those stuff...

3) harry... ok... the first thing i noticed bout this fella was he was a nut (no offence ar)...he finished all his h/w super fast n was like 1st in class... so i decided 2 do sth stupid... i went to him n called him a 'down's syndrome retarted donkey'... i 4gt his reaction la... but later in the science lab... he decided to sit beside me... n again all da ppl who sit beside me got tortured... i use to hit him n hold him by his hand n hit it against the talbe... n anain somehow this fella let me do it... real down's syndrome retarted donkey rite??!!!... n we had fun doing experiments together n all n i think ended up breaking som apparatus... anyway... so thats how it started...

4) wai lun... i adi told bout him in the previous post... somehow i 4gt how i got 2 know this fella... haha... but i know we started in f3 when we were in d same class...

5) wei/fei guang... note 2 all ppl oni i can call him feiguang... this fella sat with me in f4... n was another victim of mine... this nut ALWAYS copies my h/w...(i am surprised i even did them)... oo yea... n we wakil sekolah 2gether 4 chess... n he was always there to talk 2 me when i lost a match... coz he was substitute!!! hahahahahahahahahaha... hey... even lousy chess players can be good friends...(do not consider this as insulting... take it as a compliment...)

6) ccm... n yt another victim... this fella i think suffered most la of all da ppl sitting nex to me... i pushed him off his chair... hit him... umm... shaked him... he oso shaked me... umm... summore wat ar??

7) shao heung... sat around me i think... in f4... i remember this fella... mr vain... haha... hes so exteremely concious bout his hair... his face... his pants... his shirt... his everything la... a real interesting character which was brave enuff to tell gsp off in his blog... ooo yeah... since we r not in scl anymor then we can talk bad bout da b****es aite?? yay... shao heung... post again la... ooo yea... this fella... tsh... thyroid stimulating hormone... haha... nice knowin u...

8) alex... a real nice fella i met during chess... dis chessmaster ar... wakil negara... then we r so use to seeing him every day...we take him for granted... until some of my other frens frm other scl... "wah... alex gan wor... wakil negara 1 wor... very teror 1 wor..." then i was like... alex gan oni mah... wat so interesting??... haha... sori...anyway... i learnt lots frm this guy in many terms...

9) david lim... somehow we seem to have something in common in f3 but i 4gt wat... ooo ya... we seem to stay around the same area... have almost the same way of sleeping... studying oso i think... i ONLY lie on the floor to study... i somehow cant sit on a chair to study... anyway... this donkee decided to take so many papers 4 spm... then he writes me a comment saying 'i so sad ar... nt yt finish spm'... (sigh)... ooo yea... this fella oso very pro in chinese chess 1... but i can beat him... so i more pro... hahahahahahahahahahaha...

10) jonathan wong... sat beside him in f1 n we had like so much to talk about not knowing that he was a long lost friend...took some time to discover that...how cud i 4gt this fella... superb swimmer n my friend since i was very young... 5 yrs old i think?? ...n we played together... studied together... ooo yeah... where are the pictures!!! u nut... its probabaly a yr i waited for the picture n i am STILL waiting 4 it...

anyway... i wanna sleep now...

school life...

2007-12-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

somehow (as i have been telling almost every1 around me) i am feeling very lost... n disorientated without scl. i mean almost all my life i hv been goin 2 scl n suddenly out of da blue i dun need to go there anymore... ever... together with all da lousy things i will leave behind in scl... i will also leave the good n memorable things like my friends n teachers (which i only enjoy disturbing)...

so... here is an account of my daily scl life... starting with assembly time... i'll miss the times where i'll make a mockery of the rotten 3 bell system... n just chat so freely with whoever around me... n critic wat wong or phoon says or whoever that speaks... haha...

(newly added paragraph)
ooo yeah... how cud i 4gt!!! i'll always remember WAI LUN... ok... he has this thing to say 'Its so nice to see u today... n wow, u really made my day' so cheerfully every morning in assembly to me... n that really made my day... i'll miss u really... (i always wanted to pick that up but i never managed to)... ooo yeah... nt 4getting... his very nice to hear criticism about 'pigs' n a 'narcissist'... i hope u dun take to long to see what that means... anyway... tanx wai lun... u r really a gr8 person!

n also rushing into class to grab a chair so i dun need to wait 4 some fatty to finish teachers meeting n da inefficient ppl to get da chairs in...

n i'll oso miss mrs ramani... i mean after seeing her for 35 mins EVERY day for 2 yrs... who wouldn't mis her... it has come to my atention that school teaches us to be everything except 1 thing which is to be humans... but i found this in her... i still remembered her last lesson with us... she asked us to do da confession sorta thing... n harry started by telling the whole class how both of us became friends in f3... that was an interesting session... i oso remember her constantly telling us about treasuring family n our roots n so on... not forgetting the times when she wud give us lots of h/w in english class n ALWAYS forget to collect it... n always complain bout da scl admin n so on...

whats mor ar??... ooo yea... with da rotten locked toilets which r always closed when i want to use it... (not always la... many times)

i'll oso miss folding paper planes n flying them around class like nobody's business... haha... n chinese chess all the time...

there are lots mor things that i wanted to wite but... it always escaped my head... so this is where i end today...

special b'day tanx

2007-11-30T08:26:00.000+08:00

it may seem quite late but here are the ppl who i want to thank for making my day on my b'day:

i) choon hui!!! (he practically organized the whole outing on my b'day coz i was so drained out from the bio exam the day before...) tanx choon hui for everything!!!

ii) weng chung: tanx 4 da beautiful n delicious blueberry cheesecake...it was really a surprise coz i never expected one!!!... tanx...

iii) harry

iv) thiam sang (ooo yea... happy b'day to him 2day!!!)

v) pei yow

vi) wei keat (these 4 ppl waited after accounts extra class to go out to times square to have fun there... despite having accounts paper on thurs n fri)

vii) he hui... tanx for pontenging ice skating to b wit me... it meant a lot... :)

despite having plans on on this day, these 7 ppl took time off to be with me to celebrate my b'day together with me... some had accounts n chinese exam coming up but they came along... they all cud stay at home 2 do their revision but they din... so tanx a million... btw i will not be held liable for any loss of A's in those subjects... although i wudn't feel very happy either...

in short this was wat we did the whole time there...
- ate lunch
- bowling
-( jalan)^2

somehow these simple yet memorable activities will always have a place in my heart... for a more extensive account of the day http://www.lifesecret-eric.blogspot.com/ n look for the post on nov 27th...

ooo yeah n 4 all the b'day n well wishes... tanx...

My First Post

2007-11-30T00:37:00.000+08:00

never in a million years would i picture myself blogging... but here i am blogging for my very first time... sounds lame... haha... very blatantly this shows how interesting my holidays have been... so i decided to try this to pass my time... and somehow i hope i dun jz leave this blog to rot after a few posts...

anyway... i oso started this blog to express my somewhat 'latent' feelings towards the ppl around me... my friends in particular...

so... now... special tanx to these ppl who 'tahan-ed' me for a whole year... u ppl sud get a reward la... haha...

F3-ah chung
F4-guang
F5- CCM!!!

now thinking back... i feel somewhat guilty torturing the ppl who sat beside me... nevertheless i WON'T learn frm my mistakes n WILL continue torturing the ppl who sit nex 2 me... tanx 4 da times when u all din hit me back when i hit u uncountable times... tanx for being patient with my constant chatting and blabbering n debating n criticising... tanx for tahaning my craze for paper planes which i throw all over the class... n everything... (somehow i had lots to write in my head but they suddenly seemed to disappear)... haha...

ooo... yea n a special sorry to ccm... particularily when i pushed u off ur chair... it still makes me laugh whenever i think about it... somehow i think of it quite often... but i know it was bad of me... soree...

that should be all for now...